Hi! My name is Jayna. . . I'm 30 weeks and feel very alone. I still talk to the baby's father, if you can call it that. It's more like he makes promises then breaks them. I'm turning 23 this thursday, yet another broken promise by BD. He told me he'd get my birthday off to come to the appt I have then and then we'd go and build a bear (something I really wanted to do with him) for the baby. Well when it looked like he prolly couldn't get the day off he promised me that we'd do the build a bear on the only day we know that we both have off, which is tomorrow (this was Saturday night). Well, guess who's suddenly got too much going on tomorrow to go do this. . . yep, my promise breaking baby's daddy. GRRR!!! For my birthday I also got a 4-D US gift certificate (it was the only thing I wanted and was so excited). I told him about it, thinking we could do it tomorrow when we did the build a bear, and still he's too busy!!!! Kinda takes some of the fun out of it. Anyways, that gives you kind of an idea of what happens between me and him.

A little more about me, this is my first baby. It's a boy. Brett Jacob is due to arrive on may 10th. I recently graduated from college with a BA in psychology, but am working at Claire's (my on again off again job through school) until after I have the baby. Like I said, I'll be 23 on thursday. Not much else to say about me besides that except HI EVERYONE!! Nice to meet you.

Jayna--

First of all, Welcome to the network!! Wonderful to have you here. Congrats on your upcoming Brett Jacob! I bet you are so excited!

I have one son, Austin Neil, 3mos on the 11th of March. He is my entire life!

I am sorry but I have to laugh about your baby's daddy acting the way he is, because it sounds so damn familiar! My ex, my son's father, pulled the same crap all the time when we were dating, and even after when we were broken up. I didn't have a car all through my pregnancy, so I relied on him to take me to my dr's appts. He did take me to all but one, and he ended up going out of town, knowing I didn't have anyone else to take me....needless to say, I ended up in the hospital after missing my appt. for dehydration! I had to call 911 to get there! When we were dating he would make plans with me to go out or come over and see me and then last minute, and I am talking 10 to 20 min after he should have already been there, he would call and tell me that he couldn't make it because something came up, or he got a call for a job that he just had to take. It sucked, you know how it is. But, oh well, live and learn.....these are the reason's why they are our EX'S and not our boyfriends or husbands!!

Thanks for sharing. . . I just keep telling myself that all will seem insignificant once I meet my little boy. Hey, I have very strong ideas about parenting and at least I won't have to fight with him about it (trying to look on the positive side). It's just hard now cause as much as I hate to admit it, I still really care about him. GRRRR MEN!!!! Anyways, an update. . . My roommate and his cousin went over there yesterday to get some money that BD had borrowed off my roomie this summer and guess who was sitting around the house all day playing on the computer! I went ahead and made the appt for the US and if he can't be there or if he has some excuse, thats it, I'm done being understanding and only getting excuses. I don't like ultimatums so this is kinda one in my own mind. We'll see what happens (US is March 10, a wednesday cause he's told me he's usually off on Wednesdays)

Have fun with the U/S, Jayna. I had one done and it was so cool. My son was just born on 2/13 and isn't quite 3 weeks old yet. I also have a 5 yr old daughter (same dad). We've been on/off for 7 years going on 8. I know it's hard. We were finally engaged and I had to call it off back in August (he has a hard time telling the truth - he told me he was going to a job everyday that he didn't have among other things). I just graduated college, too. I have a BS in business management. I'm 27. I know it's hard. I'm going through some major depression right now dealing with the reality that we aren't together and getting used to a new baby. My ex likes to play pretend family and also lets me down because he acts one way one minute and another the next.

I think you did the right thing concerning the u/s appt. I had to do the same exact thing. Just try to enjoy it whether he is there or not. I know that's easier said than done, but it really is a neat experience.

Good luck and let us know how it turns out.

Phoenix

Jayna--

The things that my ex did to me before our son was born were insignifigant, you're right about that. They seem that way now anyway. At the time they were a big deal...but obviously both my son and I are fine.

I always loved getting my US's. I remember I cried the first time I saw Austin up there on the screen. That is when he really became a reality. I was going to be a mom. How cool is that? It was the best, yet scariest feeling I had ever had. And every US after that got better and better for me. My ex went in with me to the first two...after that second one, which was when we found out the sex was where he decided he didn't want to attend them anymore. He felt that if he wasn't going to really be a part of the childs life then why should he become attached. I know that they had gotten to him. He realized that it was all real....he was going to be a daddy. And that is a scary thought. It still is for him even though he is a daddy. I hurt still somewhat that he wasn't there for all of them. It does get lonely lying there by yourself with only the nurse, tech, or doctor. But, you survive, only to be stronger for having gone through it by yourself.