I'm not really sure how to start but here it goes... I'm in my mid-30's, nearly 32 weeks pregnant with a high risk & complicated pregnancy. I got pregnant very early into a new relationship. I told the father he has choices, but I have none. I will not abort, nor give up for adoption, but he is free to walk away as I do not want a father to my child who will look at her as a mistake or be what I call a "convenient daddy" (being a father only when it's convenient for him). He refused to walk away, talked me into buying a house together & in the beginning, was very supportive. But that all changed. Now I get no emotional support, no help around the house (i've been doing the repairs myself), he joined an online dating site, doesnt' come to Dr visits with me & doesn't even ask about them, yells at me if he catches me crying (i try to hide from him when I cry) and to put it nicely without listing complaint after complaint, he's just not very nice to me. He no longer resembles the man I met & has turned into a roommate that I see but rarely speaks. The one thing I want to give my child is the one thing I never had. A stable family. I'm not doing a very good job of that right now.
I've always been a very strong & independent woman. Can get thru anything life throws at me. But this one has thrown me for a loop. I cry every day & my emotional pain is as real as my physical pain. I'm completely lost. I've been trying for months to get my self out of it thinking, just think of the wonderful baby your going to have! As much as I want her & love her, I feel even worse that the thought of her alone doesn't pull me out of my depression. I now question myself as to what kind of mother I'll be to her. Can anyone tell me how to get thru this? For the 1st time in my life, I don't know what to do.

LEAVE!!!! Don't wait around. Just go. You will be a great mom. This guy is an emotional abuser. Being pregnant and hormonal, crying and doubt is normal. Most of us here have had bad relationships with the fathers/mothers of our children. It will hurt to see this jerk ignore your child. It will hurt worse than you can imagine. Talk to your doctor about your depression. Be prepared for post-partum. Read up on it. But, staying will not make a stable family for your daughter. YOU can be the baby's stability. Just love her enough for a million people. Who know's maybe he will be an OK dad after a while, but I don't believe he will be a good partner for you.

I agree with grammy, leave. It proboly wont get any better, im sorry but people usually dont change. Dont doubt what kind of mom you will be, you will be great. You have loved her enough to keep her and to fight through your rough pregnancy. Dont feel bad if you cant just completely focas on being happy about her, you have a lot on your mind.