so i've never "really" been depressed before. and now i find myself wanting to stay in bed and cry the entire day. wednesday i felt super. i had a 4 day weekend i was totally looking forward to. thursday it all went to ****. i've cried for almost 5 days straight. i don't know why i feel this way. to make matters worse: my daughter is sick. she has horrid coughing fits in the night waking up crying at all hours. i want to be the comforting mother i'm supposed to be. i really do. but all i want to do is cry any time i hear her. i'm at work fighting back tears. i don't know why. if someone has gone through this or felt like this before anything would help.

CM - My thoughts and prayers are with you!

I am so sorry you are going through this.

Is there any chance you can get someone to help with your daughter so you can catch up on rest? What happened on Thursday - Is that what has you so upset?

- I am thinking of you -

Its wasent days for me, but the crying fits when they happen are hours long, which is bad enought, now its weird dreams for a person who never dreams. Its all stress related, has to be. Fortunatly for me they pass. If you comtinue to feel this you need to get some help on it, either get some help like MJ suggested or some professional help. its hard to be the parent we want to be when we can't function. Peace

thanks, my mom slept in my room with caitlin last night and i slept in my brother's room (he slept on the couch...haha). it was much needed interrupted rest even though it was a full 8 hours. (i work til 10 last night and had to be here at 6 this morning) in all i got about 5 hours of sleep and i woke up at 3:30am for no reason. i'm sure it's just stress and i'm already starting to feel better. i don't really know what brought it on actually...

CM - I'm so glad you were able to get some rest. Even if you woke up, sometimes it's relaxing just to know that you do not have to get up in a rush once in a while.

How is Miss Caitlin feeling? I hope her cold gets better.

You both will be in my thoughts~ Please feel free to pm me anytime!

Are you sure you�re not going through post partum? I went through that with the last one and I didn�t even realize that I had it. My mom went with me to the last doctor visit and told the doctor, and low and behold that is what I was going through. It takes a lot out of you. I know its hard going through that on your own, and a lack of sleep is not good for you. If your family can, try and see if they can help you out at least one night a week. That one night, you need to do nothing but sleep even if you have to get an over the counter sleeping aid. Paul is right, stress, lack of sleep, and being on your own will take a lot out of somebody.

Hope things get better for you!

Caitlin is doing well. I just spoke with my mom and she said that when Caitlin woke up, she had some crusties in her eyes but not much of a cough. She happy and herself too which is good. As far as post partum, i don't think so... I've been normal the past 7 months. I think it's just the combined effects of being a single mom, a new mom, working full time shift work, and we're getting ready to move. I think the moving is the biggest stress issue for all of us. We have less than a month to go and a **** load left to pack. I only got 3 boxes packed this weekend which added to my stress. thanks for all your responses!

Good sounds like you are on the mend CM, keep it up. I know moving sucks.

Hey there, new to this chat..
My topic, a persistent neighbor.
Feeling pretty blah tonight,my neighbor was constantly coming over when I had things to do. At night it is just nice to relax on my own and have my time and this girl is relentless with her visiting I have told her Im tired and want to rest sometimes and shes not listening anyone know what I should do? Time to ourselves is precious as we parents know and I dont seem to have any at night now normally I write alot but I havent been able to focus on it with all the visits going on. Should say something really dont know why I dont. Anyone ever have this problem?
Thanx for Reading

Elsie, don't let her get in the door, just tell her your to tired for company right now. If you let her in, then its harder to get her out sounds like. You don't have to be mean, just be firm. If she persists, you may have to ask if she is actually listening to what you are saying. Peace and time to rest is important, don't let her take it away.

Im am very concerned to hear that you have fallen into the deep hole of depression. I am there as we speak, and although every morning is an absolute struggle for me, I still have to get up and get my son ready for school and get to work. My situation is different from alot of the ones that I have read on line. I was in a very serious and committed relationship with a man, 2 times divorced, 4 children (including our son) and he is only 30. Recently he broke the news to me that he has decided that our relationship wasnt what he wanted anymore. Since then our family has divided and he has taken the girls from our home and I have my son. Depression comes in many forms. I have sought out help from anywhere that I can get it. I go to counseling a few times a week, I am on antidepressants and anti anxiety, I wake up in the middle of the night in pure panic. I pray every chance I get, even though with in the last couple of years I have strayed from God. Im not hear to preach to anyone, just to share my thoughts with some one who might be able to understand. It doenst make you a weak person to seek help outside of yourself. It can only make you stronger, a better person and definately a better parent. Ive spent many hours crying about why this was happening to me, what did I do, what could I have done to change things or make things better, but ultimately, in a relationship, it takes 2 to tango. I miss my step daughters but I realize now that that they are his kids and i have to take a step back.In counseling, I have learned that in order to be able to love another person, first you have to love yourself. Parents dont use your children as a crutch for your depression. use them as a guide for strength and wisdom. set the example that no matter what life throws your way, you have to be able to manage and overcome.

I say this because these are the things that everyone has said to me. Right now, I am not able to see the light at the end of the tunnel, but I know day by day, my load will get lighter, my heart will be lifted and I will grieve no more.

thank you all who read this, and replied

have a good day!

Cami'smom, my heart goes out to you and what you are dealing with. I too am going through a similar situation with a split family. My husband left me during Christmas and took his son (my stepson) with him. I had been raising my stepson for 6 years full time. Now I cannot speak to him or correspond in any way because of my husband. It is very sad and very hard to deal with. Not to mention that my 2.5 yr old son is with me and misses his big brother terribley. They were extremely close.
People are always asking me how I feel about not being with my stepson anymore and don't I feel so awful about it. And the answer is YES I feel terrible but I also feel like I have no control over the situation either. I know how you are feeling. I accepted my stepson into my life as my own child and now he is gone. Along with the rest of my life as I knew it.
I too have been severly depressed but unable to get on meds as I am also 9 months pregnant. I look forward to being able to treat my depression and anxiety soon.
If you want to talk I am here--please PM me anytime. I just wanted you to know you are not alone in your situation....I know how you are feeling.
Take care.
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