i told my mother i need help. i have a dr.'s appointment tomorrow hopefully. i'm so damned anxious.

How did the appointment go? Are you feeling any better?

What did you see the doctor for??? How did it go??

I went to see my doctor on Friday, and a specialist today - as well as getting an x-ray. My ex never picked up my youngest, so I am not sure what I'm suposed to do about child care tomorrow. I have a few disks in my neck that seem to be pinching the nerves or something.. they are not sure. I'm in terrible pain... and quite tired of it.

Are we all falling apart, or what?

You ok?

Inni, my neck "goes out" I look totally warped when it does... my head is all tilted on my neck and my shoulder is up closer to my ear. IT is excrutiating!!!!!!!!! I actually sleep in a collar when it happens as I can't even lay down.

I can thank my superior anethesiologist for his superior ability to make inserting an epidural last over an hour. So now when I get stressed or do too much heavy work it "goes" Haven't had any xrays as of yet, they do give me some good meds though, and that handy dandy collar (and a ride home). I don't even want to know, I'm sure they'll say surgery or something.

Can you bring the youngest to the appointment? (not fun I know, but when desparate who knows, better than postponing for months)

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How did the appointment go? Are you feeling any better?

yeah i'm feeling better. a little more hopeful. i'll be okay. :balloon:

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What did you see the doctor for??? How did it go??

i went for depression, cutting, and an eating disorder. i'm hopeful.

Stick with it. Realizing that you need help is such a hard thing to deal with, but you need to keep the hope.

My parents thought I was suicidal at one point and kept forcing these quack doctors on me. They didn't realize that I was just worn out...seriously just worn out. Instead of the doctors helping me, it turned me on to lash out with drugs and alcohol and men.

I was 18, pregnant, and homeless when I finally realized I needed some help. What had started as imaginary problems my parents made up turned into real ones that I created. I went through intense therapy for several months and have seen therapists off and on for the last 6 years. I keep in contact with my family almost daily to keep me in line with where I should be too.

I'm just saying that I understand to a degree how bad life can seem, but I also know that there are ways to pull up and out of that low and find a happy, and nearly sunshine filled future.

Take Care, feel free to vent to me or any of us..okay?

B

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i went for depression, cutting, and an eating disorder. i'm hopeful.

Phooka ... forgive me, I did know that you were dealing with all of that. I'm on medication for my neck/arm, and I am not thinking as clearly as I should.

I am glad to hear you feel better!! Hope is a very good thing.. and can make all the difference.

Hugsssssssssss


PS. I got my xray yesterday, so I should know more by the end of the week about what's going on with my neck/arm.