I'm pregnant and now I think I'm getting depressed. When I went to get the health insurance from the state they said that new studies have found that there is "pre"- partum depression. I didnt think that a few mornings of waking up worried qualified me for that.
Please tell me this is just my hormones. I've been worrying about can I keep my home? Do I want to? I have to, because its seems I cant make any decisions without going to court to see if my first babies father will agree to it or not. I know I've mentioned before that I live in "his" town, and I really dont have any support from any one here. (I used to be able to count on him, but his g/f changed all that.) I am not leaving here without her, and I know that he will fight that. Do I have to live my life according to him? Now that I've got this baby on the way, do I have to give up my daughter to get away and be supported? She would not like that. She is already upset that when the baby comes she will have to visit her father, and told me she feels left out because this baby will have its mother and father.
Then today... I've been trying to get this going with the insurance. I sent off the papers they asked for, and havent heard anything back. So, I'm calling to make an appt. The first place I called doesnt accept the state insurance. The second wont take me unless I have a card. I dont even know if I've been approved yet. This is crazy. Its the first time in life that I dont have insurance through my job, and I never knew how much red tape there is. It really stinks. I am trying to do the right thing, but its taking time.
Its just today that I've been feeling so overwhelmed, and even thought about if I werent here anymore. Dont anyone get worried, I'd never take my own life. I just had the thought. I try to stay strong, then its starts feeling so unfair. When can I just sit and relax a little. Not worry so much? Do I have it in me to keep being strong? If I'm feeling weak and depressed, does the baby feel it too?
The thought of feeling like this for the rest of my life makes me feel worse. I know it has a lot to do with my daughters father, and having to go back and forth to court. Hopefully this evaluation will come up, and then I guess I have to keep my home until she gets out of school. The baby is due the month after. He so stressed me out when I was pregnant with my daughter. Now, he is stressing me out and this baby isnt even his. I dont want his negativity to affect this baby in any way. I just want to get away from here, and away from him. Have a happy pregnancy with the baby's daddy, and my daughter. They dont tolerate bullying with kids in school, yet, is it ok for one parent to bully another? I wish I knew what to do about this. I dont know what I'm going to do.
Can I get a dose of SFV words of support?

Sane,
I wish I had some words of wisdom for you. I am stumped.
Yes, it is my understanding the baby will feel your stress. The more you can find ways to destress the better your pregnancy will be. Never heard of "pre"- partum depression. I can understand how that could be possible. It sounds to me though that your stress/depression is from outside factors.
I wish you luck and prayers that a solution will come fast.

From what I understand, if you have valid enough reasons to move out of state to gain: a better income; support network; home.. oppose to your current situation right now .. that the court may rule in your favour. If your bf is relocated for a new job that's beneficial for you and your family (unborn baby and your daughter) then you may get the permission - despite if the father fights you on it. You can also lose this case - depending on the judge. I think you have a good case.

I wouldn't assume that the court would hand your daughter over to the father. They may say that if you wish to make the relocation, you can do so WITHOUT your daughter. You will have the choice whether you want to go under those conditions.

As for depression, I'm guessing it's hormonal and you are dealing with a lot right now. I just hope your bf is supporting you on this. Are you living together?

Sorry you're going through all this. I hope things will work out in your benefit. Hugs!

Sorry I havent been around in a little bit. I have that pregnancey tiredness, that as soon as I get home, I'm on the couch napping.
I'm feeling a little better now. I finally got my insurance card, and have a dr.'s appt.
Went to court again, and now they are going to do another mediation. If that isnt working, we'll move right into the eval.
There's more I want to post about my daughters father, but I'm just not feeling like it right now. Ha ha. Thanks for your input.