The fact that the holidays are quickly approaching is enough to make any single parent want to break down. The money, the stress, the arrangements for others to see the children....All this is enough to drive a person wild, but I havesomething else that is weighing heavily on my mind right now.

Last Christmas eve, was the first time I had heard from Trey's mother that she thought we needed a "break". I thought that she was just spewing about some random going on that was causing her undo stress, and the idea was quickly put to rest and Christmas proceeded as planned. Her birthday is the 30th of December and we went out for that and had a wonderful time.....only for the next day to come and her to walk out on both Trey and I as the new year rang in.

I can't seem to shake the reenactments that have been repeatedly occurring in my head...I am really not sure what to do. It's killing me. I am trying to make the best of the situation, and I have moved on and am happy with my life, but it seems that with the one year anniversary of me becoming a single father, I am having great troubles dealing.....Hopefully this will soon pass and all can get back to normal.....I just hate feeling like this.....I hate it....

-J

I struggled with this in October. But then I realized that I and my Daughter as so much better off without him living with us.

I have hope that it will get easier as time move on.

You just need to come bake cookies.......

Sorry your in pain. I too had to deal with an ex who out of the blue took off. He made it worse though because he kept coming back and leaving again. I am having a super hard time with it this time-it doesn't help that he keeps tring to come back in my life ( but only for occassional "coffee") I had enough and told him this week that he could he either decide to live with his son and I or get out of my life completly. So he decided to cancel the x-mas plans and get out completly. So I went to my spirtual healer that I go to and asked her to break the bonds that keep me tied to him. She told me that she would not do that but instead she would send healing to me to let me "forgive" him for betraying me and not being the person I wanted him to be. She claims that once I forgive him I will break the bonds that allow me to keep taking him back. Well, as I am very angry that he ditched us on x-mas I don't think it's working. She said that I will need to work on it and then I will be free of the pain he causes me. Anyway, my point, is that you can not escape the pain of your break-up anniversary but hopefully it will eventually heal.

Bump

It's a significant date. From that point on your life as you knew it completely changed. Hopefully you can reflect and say it wasnt as bad a year later as you thought. I'm sure things have come up that you didnt think of, but it seems like you've handeled things quite well.
Look at it this way, its a year later. You may hate the feelings your having, but their a year away from those sucky feelings you must have had a year ago. It only gets better from here on.