What happens to kids if you commit yourself to the hospital because you are suicidal? I need help now but I can't lose my son or otherwise i wouldn't have anything else to fight for.

I am not sure . but I think the better question is what will happen if you don't commit yourself. Dont leave your kids alone and wondering why with a pain that can't be mended if you think you might need help go get it and a social worker will help you. I'd think they would see that you did the right thing and it would play in your favor in the furture. Maybe temporary foster care untill you get the help you need. I do know that when i looked in to becoming a foster parent they stressed to me that the main goal was always to reunite the child with their parent.
Don't sit on this go get help for yourself and for your children. my kids lost their dad to a heart attack and I really think losing a parent is the hardest thing a child can experience please don't let that happen to your kids. The most courageous thing a person can do is to ask for help. I will keep you and your children in my prayers

Do you have a family member that would keep your son while you are working on getting better? I think that if you make a prearrangement like this, it will be fine. If you are feeling suicidal, please get yourself help ASAP. You are worried about your son if you commit your self...what would happen to him if you killed yourself?

There is an "observation house" in my area that allows people to bring their children with them. You go about your normal at home life. There is a therapist in residence to observe you and help you with everything. You might want to call your local mental health facility and ask if they have anything similar. Also, you don't have to be in the hospital in order to get help.