my name is Polly short for pauline, on the eighth of april(this month) my perfect and healthy baby boy( kenneth David) decided to join my mom and i, i thought i was ready, i spent eight months eargerly waiting for him;
im sure its just post-pardum butsence i brought him home i have been depressed, dont get me wrong even tho his father is a worthless punk i love my little boy with every thing i am; at the same time tho i just turned 18 on march 5th, i want to run away and go hide in a cave a cry, and apologize to this innocent baby for bringing him in to a broken family(being just my mom and i)i fill like 'i cant even take care of my self; how am i going to take care of somthing that is 100% dependent on me for every thing,'
i know i cant run away, but i also cant stop crying(going on 5hours strait)so if any of you have like a helpful or frindly words(that is another thing i only have one frind, i thank god for i wouldent of held in this long without him)
some one tell me every thing is going to be okay please, .....stressed and depressed

Polly,
I went thru the same thing. I think every new mother goes thru it in some form. Forgive yourself for crying. You've simply realized how VERY dependent your little guy is on you. It's your love that is showing itself. Your concern, and recognition of how much this little guy needs.

You're right, you are ill prepared to care from him when he's one or two. But you know what, you don't have to care from him as a one year old yet. Yes, you don't have the rescources to take care of daycare/school and all that right now.

Part of parenting is learning. Get involved with him right now. Actually, it's pretty easy, as long as you stick to the present tense. He poops, sleeps, urps up, and cries. (My son was one to cry for hours on end.) I know the crying is upsetting, and breaks your heart. Concentrate on what you can do for him right now. Get those diapers changed, get him fed, cuddled and loved. When it's time, you'll learn how to keep up and provide for a toddler.

Polly,
Charity is right most Mum�s go through this after having baby and I think it is harder when you are facing being a single Mum which is an added pressure. Give it a couple of days but if you don�t start to feel better then you should check with your doctor, as some mother�s need medication.
Being a single parent is never easy but when you look at your gorgeous baby just remember that the one thing in the world that he loves and needs is YOU. Keep posting here, there are a lot of mothers that have faced the same challenges that you are and will give you support. We all take it just one day at a time, and pretty much things work out
Aroha

Polly,

I had a problem with post partum depression. My Dr. put me on a small dose of Zoloft in my last month of pregnancy due to stress caused by my 15 y/o step-daughter. After I had my baby, I stayed on the small dose but had the same type of problems you describe. When my baby was about a month old, my Dr. put me on a 150mg dosage (not bad considering it goes up to 400mg dosage) and it helped tremendously.

You might not be fully aware of it by much of the emotion you are experience comes from wacked out hormones. Your estrogen, HCG and progesterone are declining at such a fast rate that it's making your body and mind nuts.

Go to the Dr's as soon as you can. The first year of your childs life goes by so fast and you want to spend it enjoying your precious little boy not being miserable.

If you're concerned about brest feeding while being on antidepressants, Zoloft is one of many class B antidepressants that doesn't pass to the baby through brest milk.

If you have questions you don't want to post on the forum don't hesitate to email me.