I hate this feeling like a weight on my chest so I’m going to b!tch about it here If you don’t want to hear it the backspace will take you back a page……….

So through out my life cockiness and vanity have been my forte but now I’m at a loss

I have so much to be grateful for but the weight of going it alone is weighing heavy on me …

I always had little in my life and my relationships were always sub par i.e. laura the mother of my kids .
But then I met Sarah and everything changed for me she believed in me and showed me how to achieve my dreams..

Me and Sarah didn’t work out. I moved back here got on my feet and ran with life using the tools she showed me I had… yes I miss her still but life goes on

So I learned how to achieve my goals with work but through out my life I always had someone.. Growing up it was my twin sister. Then girlfriends… I know its sad but I’ve never really been alone for anything longer then a few months…..

So I’m a victim of my own lust. I don’t want to go back to playing those games and picking the prettiest and most likely dumbest girl again. I want a girl of quality I want someone that I could marry and spend the rest of my life with just seems impossible to find

Sometimes I think I need a shrink that there is something horribly wrong with me…..

But I go on

Geez man...I dont know who to feel bad for more....YOU or Me?

You who "can't" be alone...cause women want him..so never has been.

Or Me, who cant find a date to save my life...cause, well....cause I'm ME, I guess.....

I'm telling ya.....I'd be a "GREAT" wing man for ya.

Played that part my whole life..........sadly.

oh sorry that wasn't what I was trying to say..

it's kind of like this yes I can find girls but I have a hard time finding women.....


on note of finding girls well lets say the well is getting shallow..

I guess I'm just depressed in 28 years I haven't been able to find more then one girl I wanted to marry and I even tried to marry that one and it failed....

Its funny the one thing I want is the same thing I'm afraid to try for....

I'm not sure I can take the rejection right now...

just imagine me talking to a wonderfully interesting successful beautiful women and when she turns me down breaking into tear and curling up on the floor...

ok maybe that's going a little to far

Ok i will stop ********....

Have you thought about internet dating? Not my cup of tea but it's a great way to get to know somebody while not skipping straight to the physical....you know like I do...lol.

Anyway even though your problems may seem trivial to you and you know you should be grateful for what you have, blah blah blah, it doesn't make your bad feelings any less valid. Everybody gets depressed at some point in their life. We can't help how we feel but we CAN help how we react to that feeling.

B*tch away dude, you're entitled.

Skip the physical for shame...

I think I'm going through withdrawal's

I'm hooked on it

Hello my names Mark

And

I'm a $exaholic

OH yea also

Yea Amy i checked out internet dating sites but looking at the pictures and reading what these girls have to say about themselves and what they are looking for is kind of funny and not worth the subsription cost to talk with them..

have you read these heres an example that i made up

Hi good looking girl looking for prince charming.. I'm blah blah blah blah (high maint) but down to earth kind of girl...
I work as a cashier for wendy's

then they look like Quasimodo's Ugly sister in there pic

and then they are looking for a guy who is 6'0"+ in great shape who make 60-70 k a year...

it seems like no one has any real sense on these things...

ok I'm sorry if you happen to be on one your prob not on one in my area.. or you didnt' wink at me or something

If you happen to look like quasimodo...well I stand by my comment.

LOL dude, you're not the only addict! I've never done the internet dating but then again I don't do any kind of dating. You need to find a "friend" that you can spend a little quality time with (lol I actually typed in instead of with there. Calling Dr Freud!) so you don't skip straight to it with every date you go on.

That's all I've got....lol. I'm so completely clueless about these things that I should've not even tried to respond. The blind leading the blind and all that.

quote:

Originally posted by Bishop:

Sometimes I think I need a shrink that there is something horribly wrong with me…..

But I go on

Sometimes I think something is wrong with me too. But then I start thinking, hey, **** I'm not perfect, what the heck...and then I write down what is right with me. Journaling helps me.

Amy funny you mention that I do have a friend that comes over but only like once a week.....

Its nice to hear others perspectives on this.....

Dancing mom so is that like ballet jazz or pole

dancers have nice legs how you doing?

I've already told you what I think and btw, there's nothing horribly wrong with you.

Bishop,

Salsa dancing dear.

"Our favorite tune has just begun.
Take your time, the night is young.

Let's wrap our minds to this song,
You and I will dance as one".



http://writing.com/authors/salsadancer

quote:

Originally posted by smshybug:
I've already told you what I think and btw, there's nothing horribly wrong with you.

I know what you think

now go take care of your sick shorty


Dancing mom

I can't dance I dance like a white boy

quote:

Originally posted by Bishop:

quote:

Originally posted by smshybug:
I've already told you what I think and btw, there's nothing horribly wrong with you.

I know what you think

now go take care of your sick shorty


Dancing mom

I can't dance I dance like a white boy

My exboyfriend danced like a whiteboy too. He used to tell me...I have 2 left feet. LOL Take care...got to take care of my mind...meditation. TTYL

quote:

Originally posted by Bishop:
...Hello my names Mark

And

I'm a $exaholic

Hello Mark, Welcome to the Club.

The first step to enjoying it more is knowing you have a problem.

Dancing Mom,
My daughter is a semi-pro flamenco dancer...her "Maestra" got to to attend a Salsa workshop once. I was in the hospital the next day reattaching a muscle in my hip.

Yes, I'm just kidding. LOL

quote:

Originally posted by paulj_in_phx:

quote:

Originally posted by Bishop:
...Hello my names Mark
And
I'm a $exaholic

Hello Mark, Welcome to the Club.
The first step to enjoying it more is knowing you have a problem.

Dancing Mom,
My daughter is a semi-pro flamenco dancer...her "Maestra" got to to attend a Salsa workshop once. I was in the hospital the next day reattaching a muscle in my hip.

Yes, I'm just kidding. LOL

Paul,
I hope your doc was able to reattach it ...I took a few flamenco lessons...loved it.

Bishop, never done pole or jazz...but would like to learn tango.

Hey people, for a sometime I thought I was a dancaholic, but no dancing doesn't manage me, I manage my dancing. I think I'm addicted to emotional unavailable men.