I am trying desperately not to feel guilty. Depression has me now. I know this because of the past couple days events. I got a talking to by my supervisor Friday..bawled my eyes out. Then, I was guilted into going to a meeting of sorts that my ex goes to every Saturday. I can't tell ya how I wanted to let it all out: on myself. I nearly went to the Crisis Clinic. My feelings weren't respected. I wanted to leave. I want to get on Wellbutrin but it's harder than heck to get a decent appt w/ my doc. I don't want this Christmas ruined because Mommy's sad. Yesterday was sunny out, it wasn't for me. The ex kept talking about taking my power back (unrelated to how I was feeling at the moment) & I got to thinking about it & it can relate to me. I need to use it on him. I'm feeling better today but know that it could get worse before it gets better.
Thanx for the ears..