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Originally posted by essence:
[qb]I still do not wanna get back on medication for fear that i will think that i need it for the rest of my life. [/qb]

I know it's scary to be so young and think of being on medication "for the rest of your life" but if it's necessary try to look at it this way....what if you had cancer or diabetes? You'd take the medication, right? It's the same thing, silly!
But in all seriousness, I have been there, I know how you feel. I DID make an attempt a few years back....worst move of my life with the exception of it made me (and everyone around who just kept telling me to "get over it" and "this is the life you chose!") realize how serious things were. Now, I have a little "trick" (I guess you can call it) which my therapist taught me....when things get the bad and you have that time when you truly feel you want to just end it all, "fantasize"~picture down the road your child's graduation day, their wedding day, all the great times to come...with YOU there with them (instead of them there saying "i only wish mom could have been here"). It's amazing how it works....the smile it puts on your face!
Good Bless, Good Luck & Stay Strong!

You need to stop being so hard on yourself. It shouldn't matter what anyone else thinks as long as your happy being you. Don't say you don't have any friends or no one cares, because I do. You have a friend in me. It seems to me that you just need to talk and get some things off your chest. I know that your past has been painful but in order to move on you must accept what has happened and realize the important things...your kids. i am here for you...we at the single parents network are here for you! Any time you feel the need to vent please don't hesitate to email me through our private messages here on this site or at: igohard83*yahoo.com

Honey we have all been there. keep your chin up and remember that your children need you. They have complete trust and unconditional love for you, and that is worth living for. Being a single parent is most definately a very difficult task. There will be many days that when you wake up you will think that it would be much easier to never get up again. I have struggled with suicidal issues as well as depression for many years now and what truly keeps me from actually doing it is my children. Imagining there little faces when they realize that I am gone is enough to keep me living. Knowing that I would be responsible for causing pain in their life is a difficult pill to swallow. Two words that I have come accustomed to is "press On". We should always move forward in life and take on whatever comes our way with pride in our walk and faith on God that he will be walking right by our side. We are all here for you whenever you need us.