I just signed up with this site after reading all of you honest posts about what you are dealing with. I have been separated now for 9 months (I can't believe it has been that long) and am the mother of a beautiful 5 year old daughter. Even though I have been separated for only 9 months I have been a single parent for about 4 years as my "husband" travels all of the time. He only saw my daughter on weekends, so not much has changed in her life. But at least I would have another adult in the house...as disengaged as he was.

So, why is it that now, after all of this time, my depression is getting the better of me? I guess I can only fake this for so long. I am having panic attacks, I feel waves of heat run through my body every so often. I have no appetite and I am exhausted.

I am going to see my doctor tomorrow, but I know what this is...this is stress, depression, being overwhelmed. I guess my reign as super woman is coming to an end. But what scares me most is that my daughter is watching me fall apart. I have managed to keep it relatively together for this long. But not this week...this week my body has taken over and I can't get control.

Any advice, insight, tricks to help me? I would really appreciate hearing. I am dealing with this on my own and am tired of being alone.

Thank you. I am really hoping that someone can give me some help. I wasn't able to sleep last night (again) and I am feeling really dizzy.

Best go easy on this one girl, there can be underlieing(sp) health reasons for this also. Be sure to write down all that is going on with you so when you go in the doctors office that you don't miss anything.