Ladies and Gents---THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR SUPPORT!!! I have friends and family but, it makes such a difference to actually share my story w/ people, who in a lot of cases, have gone thru the same things.
I appreciate all of your writings but, one of the things that really sticks w/ me is the reality that if I do have this man in my life and he doesn't get the psych help he desperately needs, when my child grows up seeing such a dysfunctional relationship, he or she could be headed for exactly the same thing. As a matter of fact, he came from EXACTLY THE SAME SITUATION and has carried on this horrible family tradition. To strengthen my resolve, I need to think about the possible detriment to my child.
Reading back thru my earlier entry, I neglected to mention that other than Daddy Dear and my doctors, only one of my close friends knows about the pregnancy...I'm 'from the old school' and I don't believe in telling a lot of people about expecting until I'm out of the 3rd, maybe 4th month that 'danger zone'. So, in addition to the stress of a 'busted' relationship, I have no one to share my anxiety about repeat miscarriage with. Wait-Wait-Wait...Actually I do now.
Thanks so much again.

P.S. I do have a body pillow and hopefully that will help some.