hello everyone. It's been awhile since I posted anything but I could use some encouragement or something...I am 37 weeks now, and I am scared of going through labor and delivery by myself. My mom wants to go, but 1.) I don't always find her that comforting, I love her and know she means well but she can be controlling and pushy. & 2.) I really need her to stay here with my 2 year old. My dad is here but he's sick and I don't feel comfortable with leaving her with anyone but my mom. I don't have any friends close enough to ask to be with me, same with family. I have a sister who practically faints at the sight of a hospital, so she's out! Can I really do this alone?
Add to all of this every time I have to do something related to this pregnancy like doctors visits etc.., even shopping, I get this angry/sad feeling about my ex husband and the fact that he's not with me. I thought I was over him mostly, but Now I am really missing him as the end gets here. I haven't enjoyed this pregnancy or the anticapation of my new arrival almost at all. I start crying every time I go to the doctor now, and I know it's not fair to the baby.
Add to all of this a ton of family stress in the house I share with my parents and the fact that my sister who I hate and haven't seen in 3 years is coming to visit tomorrow with her family, and my mom seriously guilt-tripped me into being here for the visit, and I really think I might lose it here.
I feel very alone and it seems selfish to ask but I just need to hear some nice things right now, and you all have helped so much in the past. Thanks!

The thought of giving birth is terrifying. I remember that fear.

While you're in the middle of it, however, you just find a way to deal with it. You will come out on the other side, incredibly proud and impressed with what you were able to accomplish.

You will. I promise!

Welcome to the forum! We're here for you!

Magzy,
I am right there with ya. Due next month hate my husband but cant let it go. Hard to explain.
I know you are looking for something positive but I can only relate to the negativity.
I have not been happy through this pregnancy and I do not know if my baby will end up being colicy or ill tempered because of all of the stress throughout the entire pregnancy. Guess I will find out next month.

I went through my pregnancy alone... and guess what kept me happy and bubbly? It's just being part of this forum and getting to know the people in here. A lot of women here know exactly what you're going through, and if you need to vent, just come here anytime and we will listen.

Honestly, this forum has played a big part in keeping me happy during the days when i had to face the pregnancy alone. Now I gave birth to a happy little baby boy, because I did keep myself happy throughout the pregnancy.

Just keep yourself happy... even if you're not happy, try to be, for the baby's sake. Go to the parlor, get a massage, meet up with friends, go window shopping! And yeah, log on to this forum. Your baby needs you to be happy.

Magzy,
Good to see you back....I'm purposely ignoring how stressed out you are...cause I KNOW you're gonna be fine. You're a "Mommy" and mommies doe what ever they have to for their kids.

And you'd better show ups pictures ASAP when you have that baby!

All joking aside....just know that theres a whole bunch of people here...that would literally be there...to help you ...and at the very least keep you company if we could.

Prayer and Wishes for the best possible delivery go out to you.