I had found out I had cervical cancer in 2000. I had surgery on June 5th of 2000 and it was one of the scariest things. At the time she wasn't sure if the cancer had spread. She told me that if it had she would do a full hysterectomy. The sad part it I cried worse at that because I felt that someone was taking away my GOD given right to have children. Plus i had 2 boys and I desperately wanted a daughter my family didn't feel complete. I told my doctor what ever she had to do to save my life just do it. She did the surgery and said she got all of it and I would not be cancer free for 5 years and there is always a possiblity of it coming back. 2 months after my surgery I found out I was pregnant no one was happy because they were scared about my health and the life of my baby. They was a good chance that my cervixcould open to early and I could ahve a miscarriage. By the time i told everyone I was 4 months pregnant I found out that I was having a girl and it was the best day ever. My daughter is 1 1/2 year old now. I am constantly thinking that my cancer will come back or I will get it somewhere else in 5, 10, 15 years. I have seen it all the time because my children's father has had a lot of family die of cancer. I am so scared that one day I will never see my kids again because I die of cancer. I wonder how they will deal with it or how their lives will be. Lately I have been having that feeling about my cancer more and more. I am afraid to go to the doctor for checkups because she might tell me bad news. I haven't been in about 5-6 months and I am suppose to go every 3 months. I don't know how to get thid out of my mind.

I feel for you. But your chances are better taking care of yourself and go to the doctor. That way if you do have bad news it's better to catch it early than late!
And pray always! God knows your worries and will carry you.