Well here I am again venting away at what seems like a worthless cause. I am wondering now if I am really that think in the head. For some time my ex and I have been carrying on what I thought was a relationship. Now to me sleeping with someone and doing things with them and stuff like that is a relationship. Him and I got along better when we didn't live with each other. Anyways I get informed about a month ago he has been seeing someone else for 3 months and didn't want me to accidently run into them somewhere or have someone else tell me. Yeah like that would happen these are the same people who didn't tell me anything when we lived together. Anyways I met this women and she seems really nice which is good, except for the kick in the teeth that I recieved, I deserved it for going along with it. Anyways it turns out she is the mother of my youngest sons friend from kindergarten and they are so happy to see each other again. Now time has moved on and what am I doing sitting here watching her son while they go out and have a grand time. I get this " We are taking her youngest one to the sitter and it is so great that you agreed to the sleep over because we want to go out" OUCH !!! Now I had the opportunity to go out last night but can't because I have bills and am so far broke it hurts, he then tells me he will be able to give me some money but not allot because his credit cards haven't been paid. Like the retard that I am I just smile because when I finally did lose it the first time in 2 years, I get told I should go for therapy because he thinks I am nuts. I wonder what makes me nuts? I am so emotionally spent right now it hurts to even breathe. To think I actually thought this person and I would maybe have a future together again. He has changed and everything but changed for someone else. When I asked him about that he said he didn't want to make the same mistakes he did with me. He spends more time with her kids, drives her and them around, and we are left sitting here. Tired of the broken promises and the lies and just plain tired.

Sounds like you just need a vent and a hug too. This week has been the week of venting around here. And yours is justified.

So he's taking the new girl out, while you watch the kids but won't pay owed money because now he has to pay for the credit card he used to take the new love out. Oh and I forgot he was setting this all up while he was lying to you for what...3 months or so.

You didn't say why you were being so nice to this.... hmmmm person. Here's the :huggies:

Thank you for that. I am just nice because. Her one son is friends with my youngest and I am not comprimising their friendship because of him. I am just a sucker for punishment also I think. Eventually things will go my way and all will be well. Just the hurt gets to much sometimes

Hey TheDreamer is back!

Glad you are with us,sorry this is happening to you.
Of course it hurts, you started to trust again only to find out he's been playing you. He is very good at it, and knows you well.
He knows how to twist things to make it your fault.
I understand things are bad financially for you and that you don't want to make it worse with him because he might give you nothing at all, but I think he knows that and knows it gives him control.
Which in the end just keeps you behaving in line of what he wants.

I sure as heck would not be doing anything to help him.

You are a strong cookie! Here a hug from me too
:huggies:

Hi Dreamer Well my dear I would let the mother of your childs friend know that you value the time the children have together.As for babysitting for them sorry plans.He is just going to continue with this nasty behavoir toward you let him go.As for child support do that through the court.I get the whole broke thing,I am so with you on that my children are praying for cable.Our dinners are out of food banks,nobody is wearing the gap in this house.Also no one is being hurt here either.A lepord doesnt change his spots.Let him go and you i AM SURE ARE MORE THAN STRONG ENOUGH TO MAKE IT.My cap lock keeps sticking sorry.Take care hugs and vent away Gail