Hi every one my name is Polly short for pauline, on the eighth of april(this month) my perfect and healthy baby boy( kenneth David) decided to join my mom and i, i thought i was ready, i spent eight months eargerly waiting for him;
im sure its just post-pardum butsence i brought him home i have been depressed, dont get me wrong even tho his father is a worthless punk i love my little boy with every thing i am; at the same time tho i just turned 18 on march 5th, i want to run away and go hide in a cave a cry, and apologize to this innocent baby for bringing him in to a broken family(being just my mom and i)i fill like 'i cant even take care of my self; how am i going to take care of somthing that is 100% dependent on me for every thing,'
i know i cant run away, but i also cant stop crying(going on 5hours strait)so if any of you have like a helpful or frindly words(that is another thing i only have one frind, i thank god for i wouldent of held in this long without him) or if you have gone threw it or are going threw it ide really like some people to talk to please,,,?

Depressed and stressed new mom

Post Partum Blues.... or Post Partum Depression. Oh it is such a huge task to take on even when you are older and married and everything was planned. It is scary as heck that immense love you never knew you had in you. Yikes, makes my stomach twinge just thinking of those feelings again. (((((HUGS))))) I'm glad you are posting, it means you are aware of your emotional state right now. Try and get through the first weeks and if you continue to feel like this please call your doctor. For right now your body is going through a HUGE hormonal change. It doesn't just stop being pregnant once the baby is born and it definitely takes some time. Plus, being a new mom just makes us so sensitive to everything I think....

I bet he's a doll! Welcome to the world little guy! How's your mom doing? Is she thrille, helpful, just unsure?

Welcome to the forum Polly. I'm sure that this is a lot all at once, turning 18, the new baby but I also think with some more time you'll get balanced out some more with it. This is just your first week, I get the feeling you'll be doing much better soon.
Congrats on your new son.

im sure your rite but its hard, espicially the fact when i feed him and i try burping him , i cant ever do it , my best frind john burps him and so can my mom, but all he gets when i try it is a tummy ache,. i fill so guilty for the fellings i have on wanting just to take off and get away, i love this littly blessing in my life with all my heart, unforchanatly i have a black rain cloud flooding my heart and mind rite now, sence the eith i have only gotton a totle of 7 hours sleep, and i know that that isnt helping

OK some tricks I learned with burping I would lay them on my lap on their back, just for a half a minute even and they seemed to burp more easily when I lifted them back up to burp. Think of an air bubble in a bottle, turn it on its side then up again, kwim? Also if they are fussy from gas laying them on their backs and doing the bicycle thing with them for a minute or so... just gets things loosened up in their to float out.

Once you really relax with all of it and get used to this things will come without thought. I swear, the harder you try on some of this stuff (burping, feeding, etc.) the less response you get. One thing I'm sure of is he loves you and knows who his mommy is.

(OK I need to stop talking in plural)

Babydoll,
It does sound as though you may have some post partum depression but, being a new mom is overwhelming by itself sometimes. My mom helped me so much to relax and when I did relax, my daughter relaxed. The baby will feed off your stress or your comfort. My mother used to tell me, "There is no such thing as a bad baby. There are only babies that are content and those that are not. When mom is content baby will be."

If you can take some time for yourself with the help of your mom or your friend it will help you very much. Just for a long shower or a walk or to read a magazine. I would definately talk with your doctor about all this at your next appointment.

Take care.. we are all here to help and listen.