I'm interested in what it feel like to be the non-custodial father? I know it sucks, but tell me why and how you you've overcome it?

Thank you.

A concerned mother

I don't know how to start most of what I feal is deap in my hart and hard to explain but I will try. I see my son every chance I get but it is never enough. I get along with my ex because I let her take advantage of me so that helps but I feal I have to walk on egg shels around her so I don't make her mad and try to keep my son from me.
I cant have a relationship with another woman because they don't understand my relationship with her and don't understand why I drop everything to make her happy.
It is a hard life but I just keep thinking one day he will be oldenough to know what he wants and then I will be able to have my life back, not that I regret one moment of my life so far because I love my son and would do anything to be a part of his life.
Living with the chance that someday his mom will get re-married and another man will be in his life more then I scares the hell out of me more then anything, but that is a hole other story.
I've gone on long enough If you have any questions let me know I will try to help.