Well, today would've been my 15th wedding anniversary. I really, really thought I would just fall apart today. I even halfway planned to take a "sick" day today because I thought I might want to hide out at home.

Surprise, surprise, I was OK all day. It's getting to me now a little but, but I went to work, had a productive day and was mostly fine. It's so liberating to not be a slave to the calendar, to not be just flattened by a certain date.

My son and I do "best thing worst thing" at the end of each day, where we tell each other what our best and worst things were today. That moment was difficult, because the worst thing was knowing that if only things were different, this would've been a special day in our house, and he'd still have two parents to lean on day in and day out, instead of just me.

I am so glad to say goodbye to this day.

Good for you!!!!
I know just how hard milestone days are.
I have a hard time with each birthday, anniversary, or holiday.
Glad you made it through the day ok.

That is very good for you. NJ, I was thinking I was going to have a moment when you and Paul announced you were getting married on my wedding anniversary (Aug 30), but you know what time does heal wounds. I was fine. My ex's bday usually falls around Labor Day, so there has always been something to keep me occupied. My birthday is worse because there hasn't been anybody charged with taking me out, getting me flowers or anything for the past two years, I've been the charity case of some really great friends tho. But in the very least I can say the one thing we still do for each other is wish each other well birthdays, mother's day and father's day, christmas and new year's. I guess that's civilized.