Feeling a little lonely right now. In the office late and fixing to head on home, but just catching up on the "news" around here.
About me....
I should be able to move on. I mean, I am an attractive(enough),nice lady, if I do say so myself. I am having a hard time moving on from my ex. He had recently told me he wanted to remarry me again. Then a few days later it's all over and I'm sitting here wondering what happened. I've talked to him. He says he'll always love me no matter what we go through and for me to never forget that but he's tired of all the ---- from our kids. They are teens now. The problem is he was never around for them growing up and now that he had a chance to be back with us again, he messed it all up (long story.) He "can't handle the kids?" They are HIS kids and what the heck does he think I'm going through trying to do it all alone?
I suppose it's for the best,but I hurt real bad. Could get someone else I know, but my heart has this big chain on it and it has his name written on it. I love him too much to move on....to allow someone else to hold me, would betray what I have in my heart for him.
And I do want to be held right now. To cry on someone's shoulder, to be told I'm beautiful....you know all that mushy stuff...but if it isn't him, I don't want it.
just feeling lonely.....
it will pass.

Shannon

I know my hugs on here aren't the same but I would give you thousands if they would help you feel better. I know you are a beautiful person and because you are there for your children, that makes you even more beautiful.

Its his loss. You are the strong one, you are there for your children through thick and thin. I know that at times life is lonely but sweety, time heals all. I know it doesn't sound like much but I've known you for a while on here now and you are a good person. You deserve to be happy.

Cry, scream, yell, hit a pillow or a wall if you must and get it all out. You do what's right for you and your children. I know you will be good again soon and the loneliness will go away.

Something to consider: maybe you should tell your ex that you dont want to hear those kinds of things from him as they are not appropriate and if you expect to move on, you dont need to hear that from him.

My thoughts and prayers that you get through this and smile more every day.

Hey there. I dont know how long you two have been apart. I do know time does heal. Give it time. Involve yourself with work and your kids. try to stay busy. Go get regular manis and pedis. Buy yourself something pink and fuzzy, curl up with that at night. Get to really know yourself again. All of these things take time. I promise, you will feel so much better. You must move on. I know you know that and dont want to hear it, but, hes not the one for you. Go buy some really good novels (no self-help books please) or go to your library. read few pages each day. Take the kids to the park. Just sit there, its ok. theres no law that says you have to get on the swing sets if you dont feel like it. but your kids will have a good time. Spend time surfing the net. But pick up on all the fashion sites ie: Chanel,Dior, Louis Vouitton, Versace ect... and "fancy store" sites. Create a "wish list" on these sites. This should keep you busy for a while, and theyre all tried and tested suggestions. Hang in there girl!

Thanks y'all....I feel better today. I don't like to feel down and so when I get to feeling that way, I get out as quick as I can.
I know I am a beautiful person....I truly know that so I have ALOT to offer some guy....one day. Just not ready yet.
I am ready, however, to start going out again....thinking about doing so this weekend.
I'm going to go to a Bar / Bistro tonight. Not to get drunk. May only have a little wine or one beer but the live music is awesome and I love teh atmosphere there!Trouble is (not really trouble) that's where he and I used to go together....but now that he's moved maybe he wont be there. If he's there, I can cut my visit short or I can simply have a good time and when he sees all the other guys looking at me and talking to me....let that be his thing to deal with.

Ok....well, sometimes I say things I don't always really believe about myself...to sorta self-encourage me.....I don't have anyone else to do it so I mind as well!
I don't want y'all to think I'm coming off here on some sort of ego trip. I actually have low self esteem, but I DO work on it, or try to.
I realize one thing: If you don't know you're own value, someone else will come along an assign you one.
So I try to speak positively while on the inside I often put myself down or self-criticize.
I said in my post I know I'm a beautiful person..well, while I know I'm not ugly (not too ugly anyway....I guess that's a matter of opinion) I am also referring to my inside person. Dunno, just thought after re-reading my post that I sounded rather arrogant, and I wanted to clarify.
There, I feel a bit better now...

Hey,

I don't think you came across as arrogant, and I doubt anyone else thought so either. Actually, I think that you're doing something that a lot of people would do well to learn. I really like this quote (you make it up?): "If you don't know you're own value, someone else will come along an assign you one."

Really, there's so many ugly guys in the world saying they're great and from the girls on their arms it seems that they're convincing people. Once those people start saying the same things, they don't need to say great things about themselves anymore. It really does work.

Really...keep saying those things about yourself. If you're not getting attention from people, it's probably more because you don't get yourself out to the right places. I know I never meet anyone because I only go home and to work (and I'm wicked hot ).

Later,
Bobby

(smiling my jokers grin)....Thanks I needed that.
I'm sure you are wicked hot.....so am I... but... I'm from Texas, so naturally I am just hot....
Anyway...about that quote....YES!!!! I DID make it up, I'm glad you like it! I was walking up to my front door one day, coming home from work and i was thinking about the whole relationship thing and
BAM!!!! That came to me so I wrote it down so I would not forget it.
PS...I only go from work to home, too, pretty much. I have 2 jobs and an occasional 3rd job at a winery here.....very busy, no social life. But I love people! Love to meet people and learn more about them. (Because they seem to have a life whereas I do not! Ha!!)