Don't know really how to say how I feel. I'm having a hard time having faith. I don't go to church, but would really enjoy going.- I think. There are times when I just outright don't believe or have faith. There are days that I wake up and ask if today is going to be the day he does me the favor and ends it all. That my daughter would be better off. At times I honestly believe that GOD keeps me on earth for a good laugh. Many things have happened to me in my life that I just truly do not understand. I really feel if I had GOD and a little faith in my life, my life would be a whole lot more enjoyable. I just don't know how. The man I am dating is catholic, but has never asked me to start going to church with him. My brother has also converted to being catholic. I just don't know what to do. A concern that I have is my daughter. I realy want her to grow up being part of a church. The last thing in this world I want is for her to grow up thinking and feeling the way I do. If anyone can help, I would appreciate it and be very grateful.

Hey Sele, maybe you could ask the guy you are seeing if he'd mind if you went along to mass. Could be that he doesn't want you to feel like he is pressuring you into religion, so he hasn't asked.