This is a message to say to all those who suffer alone as a single parent, that what pulled me through all what I had to endure throughout a 10 year period of harrassment/stalking, violence etcetera thrown at me, was the knowledge that with inner strength and belief in that there is a greater power at work than ourselves watching over us(universal energy and empowerment, some say there belief of it comes under the heading of a religion). That belief or understanding meant that I knew that I was never truly suffering alone. The knowledge of knowing this empowered me every step of the way even when everything seemed lost.
When somebody inyour life trys to destroy every part of your being total. I would always remind myself that that person walked a path of complete negativity but didn't want to walk alone with it but had to take another/s down with them. Bullies are always humans who are cowards thus have no control in their lives or power hence they take out their ugly destructive behaviour on those that would give them love and understanding. In hindsight now I can see all of these things much more clearly. Whereas, when you are emotionally and mentally caught up' in a spirral of destructive events taking place. You do not or cannot appreciate/ or you don't have the space /or the time to get a clear balance/ or perspective on the above issues.

In my darkest hours(and there were many of them!), I would tell myself that my life was worth something and that I could not and would not let a destructive soul take my life from me.

Spirituality is not about religion it is a belief in your soul and the light that you carry within. That your life has purpose and it was meant to be. That anyone life is about how you follow your path/fate, how you survive to the best of your ability. How you cope at all that life throws/or don't throw at you!. Wrong from right'.
Everything in our lives is a learning curve.
As Shakespeare said,"...life is but a stage and we are actors upon it....."(not quoted exact, sorry).
Yes, like many I faced total despair on many occassions but I refused to give in and let the negative win. It cost me a lot in many many ways but time moves on and I still have my life. I survived!
Shall finish here. I think that I've said enough!
If nothing else I hope that it helps somebody and gives them strength and hope for the future.

great words of encouragement! Welcome!

Milly have you had any luck with mediation and contacting your spirit guide and angel to progress forward.I seem to be stuck on that part.I cannot aford to go to a session on that.I have been using buddist mediation I found on the web.I just feel like i am stuck in a negative rut and I am trying to claw my way out and suggestions would be apprieciated.thanks Gail

Learning Always hello! You say that you are in a negative rut and that your trying to claw your way out of it! I cannot really advise on that, as that is a very broad statement on what is possibly a very personal situation, and therefore, it would be unwise to give suggestions, as I would not be sure as to what would be helpful to you at this point.
As for connecting with a spiritual guide one must first of all be very in touch with ones own self before a person can positvely connect with the powers that be' i.e spiritual energies. WHAT i WOULD SAY TO YOU IS TREAD CAREFULLY, if you in your self are feeling negative mentally, then it would be wise first of all to get your mental energy lifted up' first.
Otherwise, you could find yourself opening up to an enrgy or metaphysical power source that you don't understand or have no control over. For as all things in this life there is always opposites i.e positive and negative, good and bad, and so it goes for the universal energy/spiritual flow that withing it there is the positive and the negative.
I have had the sight' all of my life and in many ways it was my saving grace. It worked with me to help clear my path on many occassions. but as human being you have to walk your own path and face what lays upon it. responsibility lays on our own shoulders and we have to deal with what happens to us. If we face' what confronts us rather than pretend its not happening or we fear the unknown, then the fear takes over and gains strength, then it becomes three timess harder to eventually sort it out,etcetera. Fear makes something seem impossible to overcome. Be true to yourself no matter how hard it maybe and youll get through. Life believe it or not is precious, even if we do not thinks so.
I'll finish on that note! may inner peace reach you within. It feel s to me that you need healing of the soul first before you reach out further, take your time, slowly is better than rushing things. Hope that this message gives you some help.

Thanks milly I have just come to terms with the fact that I have spent 38 long yrears stuck in abuse,trying to change and grow to change this for me and my kids.With so much negative around me it seems hard to find a positive.But I will keep trying gail