So I'm 18 and I have two daughters.. ages 3 and 19 months. If you've been following my posts on this site than you probably know all of my situation. But if you dont i'll give you a quick overview of it.

I'm no longer with my girls father.. it just wasnt meant to be, so i broke up with him but i thought things were going ok since he was still active in my girls lives. Then.. he became obsessed when he realized that i was not going to ever get back together with him and began stalking me. (its all written in the EX's section). Me and Anthony started to date about 8 months after i broke up with my childrens father. I've written how me and him meet, got together and everything in the dating and relationships section. When we started to date my ex was outraged and attacked me so now to make a long story short, he is not allowed to see his girls for a year. But im not going to ever let him see them again.

Me and Anthony have a fantasic relationship. He sees my kids as his own and he loves me and them so much and vise versa. I've known he was the one from the first kiss we had. I fell hard fast and him the same for me. Neither of us have ever experianced a love so intense and real. We both KNOW for a fact that we are meant to be together forever.

So about a week and a half ago my friend wanted to take a pregnancy test so i took one with her "knowing" that i wasnt going to be pregnant. It was negative. I was expecting my period the next day.. i didnt get it. So the day after that i take another one still thinking im "just late". But before i could even pull my pants up it said positive!!! I was shocked because anthony thought he was infertile (he had unprotected *** with his ex girlfriend for 3 years and never got her pregnant.. we had *** for 1 month and he got me pregnant!) How crazy is that??
So neither of us wanted to abort this child and he was excited that he would be having a child of his own. I kept changing my mind.. id decide to keep the baby, then id think that i couldnt because it would be impossible so id decide to abort even though the thought of that tore me up inside. Everytime id suggest abortion to him he would beg me not to. I was just worried about everything.. about money, my parents, what people would say, etc. But- ive made a decision.. and i want to keep this baby. i'm 5 weeks and im already starting to get attached! We made a plan out.

We're going to get married in april or may then rent a townhouse or maybe vise versa. Then we will tell our parents about the pregnancy and marriage and take it from there. After the baby is born im going to stay at home with my kids while he works. He makes pretty decent money.. about 900 a week so we should be fine.

I'm getting really excited about everything!! Before i wanted to have an abortion not for me but because i didnt want people to talk bad about me and i didnt want my family to look down on me. But ive realized that i have to do whats best for me and my family. Anthony, my girls, and this baby are a family now and thats what makes me happy.. so why ruin something that makes me happy.

I dont really know what this post is even about lol.. i guess i just wanted to tell someone about all of this.

Thought I'd congratulate you again.
I know it seems rough right now, but you'll be ok. Obviously you're a great mom and that's what counts.
If you ever wanna talk, you know where to find me
-Ryan

Congrats on the new coming baby!! You will do just fine. I got pregnate w/my daughter in March and did not expect it. Like your BF my X had unprotect *** w/three GF in fine yrs and never got them pregnate. He is w/me for not even a whole yr and I end up pregnate in March. The rest is a long story and history at this point.

Like you I went thru the well I already have a 8yr old and was terrifed of bringing this little baby into the world and not being able to provide for her. I was 6wks when I found out and w/in a week I fell in love w/this baby and could not abort it. Her dad left me in June and I was face w/single mommy life again w/two kids.

On December 29 2005 I welcomed my new little daughter into this world w/open arms. She will be a month old tommorow and everyday I look at her I thak God I never aborted her. Its work and yes it scary as you already know b/c you have children already but its worth it. I looked at my son every day while I was decieding to keep her and I thought I did not abort him and look at what I ended up with! I specail sweet little boy.

You will do fine and I wish you the best of luck.

SPIRIT