now i know that i'm not as young as others, but i am 19. i'm a freshman in college, and determined to achieve my master's degree in special education. i'm about to have a baby girl in five weeks, due on feb. 14th, Valentine's day. i'm excited and anxious ( specially to be rid of these back aches, but i'm scared. there is no baby's father... he is officially out of the pic.. i'm not scared to do without him, just scared about finding her a good father one day, or that she might resent me for losing her father. i'm don't think i'm ready at all for her, and i feel horrible because now i'm unsure... i want her more than anything on this earth, i couldn't imagine going back to when she didn't even exist. but i'm scared i'll fail as a mother. what if she despises me???

Hello! Im 19 as well and 3 years ago i was in your boat (but 3yrs younger lol) I was scared, and felt alone (even tho i wasnt), and just not ready to bring my kids in the world..but they came early and since then it has been amazing. You will do fine, it just flows, one day u feel like ur gunna go crazy, and the next you feel like the happiest person in the world. I was scared to 'fail' as a mother, but really..u cant (well u prob can but ud actually have to try to fail) Just go to her when she crys, help her when shes sick, be there for her as she grows, teach her right from wrong and to be a good person, now that may seem like alot, but its really not, i find myself doing all that without thinking, as a mom (in 99% of cases) you know whats right.
Just calm down, and enjoy your last 5 weeks with out her, because yah u want her to come, but once shes here theres no getting away, lol
Oh also I reed some of your other posts, i sjut wanted to say iam like you, im attending University, i dont want to get married, im not to concerned about partying (iam able to go out once in a while which is nice) i want to be a teacher, and am in my second year, i live with my dad (dont plan on it forever tho) SO you are not alone!
Take Care, and if u ever need to talk i try to check this place everyonce in a while!
Good Luck!!!!

shaolin,
Hi there. First off, welcome to the forum. or the "nuthouse" as I like to call it.

Look, I'm obviously not a woman, and as such of course have never borne children. I am however a dad of 3.

It's hard to explain this to people who have never had children..but...I'm going to try..ok?

If you have ever been in a situation, where not matter what you did, how you acted, what you said, that you could have a person that would love you unconditionally, no matter what..... Well, that's how kids are .

Your baby will love her Momma, no matter what. You will be the world to her...well, at least until she becomes a teenager...LOL.

Our prayers and wishes for a smooth delivery are with you.