Feeling really worn out lately. I get like this occasionally, but ususally bounce back pretty quickly. This time however, eveyday seems to be getting worse. I will be turning 26 in Aug, and although I'm still considered "young" I am not getting any younger. My daughter and I had to move back home with my parents and it is really starting to bother me. 26, with a family of my own, and still living at home with mommy and daddy?!? COME ON! Although my schedule is very hectic, and it would be hard to be on our own, it us really bothering me. I do go to school full time and I work third shift full time. Starting to really doubt myself and what I am doing. Do I really want to be in school?!? No. But, I have to. I've been a freight pusher for two years and I have to force myself into work every night. I work at the Home Depot and the thought of becoming a lifer there makes my stomach turn. I have no real sense of stability in my life. Stability for me is my own home, my own life.- with my daughter of course. I envisioned by now I would be married, more children, and a nice home. Now, I see that no where in my future. Instead I see myself 40 yrs old still taking oreders from my parents. They tell me when I can go out for petes sake! to the point that I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. I'm really needing something more and don't know how to get it. Can anyone offer any advice??? I'm ready to quit school, quit work, quit life!! I really just don't know how much fight I have left. Or am I being selfish and stupid?

Hi SELE,
Get ready for a log post.SORRY.I'm not sure I'm the one to be giving my opinion or any advice on your post but I'm going to go for it anyway.I feel as if I am what you fear becoming.I am 41 and my son and I live with my mother,we have since he was born,he's 11 now.Don't get me wrong,I appreciate everything my mother,and my father too before he died,have done for me and my son.I don't know how I would make it without her help because there is no way I could afford rent much less everything else.My son loves her and even though we are barely getting by --by ourselves neither of us could make it.
I was 30 when I had my son and had only planned on staying with them awhile.Like you,I always thought that I would meet someone and we would raise my son together,have a nice home,more kids,I would have a job I loved and enough money to live a comfortable life.I was wrong on all counts.I'm almost 42 and my life is nothing like I always thought it would be.I love my son with all my heart and wouldn't change having him for anything----I've just learned to live with the possibility that this might be all there is for me.This is my life,such as it is.
I'm telling you all this for a reason.My advice is this------DON'T END UP LIKE ME.You really don't want to be me when you turn 40.And believe me,it will go by very fast.Stay in college,something I wish I had done,try to find your own place eventually,get a job you love doing that will allow you to give your son a good life.I am in a job I absolutely detest but I have no skills to get a better job so I'm not even making it paycheck to paycheck.What hurts the most,and I mean literly tears my heart out,is the disappointment I see in my sons eyes when he looks at me and sees that we don't live as well or have a normal life like his friends do.We aren't dirt poor,exactly,but we don't have as much or get to do as much as his friends do.I feel like,and I might be all wrong,my son thinks I'm not as good as the other moms that have their own home and a good job and that don't live with their parents.At my age I know things should be different,but like you,you get so far down that there seems to be no way up again.
Sorry this is so longwinded but I honestly don't want you to end up like me.Stay in school and make a good life for you and your child.Do everything you can now to reach whatever goal you have for your life because,trust me,the older you get the harder it is to make changes.
I hope I haven't been a downer for everyone and I really do wish you all the luck in the world.At your age you can still fix things,change things.Don't get so down on yourself that you end up a bitter old woman.If I could change things I would jump at the chance,at your age you can still do it.Good luck. :huggies:

Hey SELE,

I have been there and still come and go there. I'm 28yrs old and I rent an apartment. I've been a single mom since I was nineteen yrs old and I just had another baby in Dec. which I'm still a single mommy. Nope my life is not what I wanted to to be by now either. Ya know what lifes plan is strange but everything happens for a reason. Life wants u right where u r and thats never a bad thing. Things will come together I know they will for me so they will for u.

Try to stay in school and keep ur head high. Things will work out for the best.

SPIRIT

Wow. You sound like me. I turned 26 5 days ago. 2 months ago I quit my full time job and rented out my house and moved in with my mom so that I could go back to school. I now work part time, go to school part time and most of all a FULL TIME MOM and DAD. It's hard because you think your life is standing still, or going backward for that matter. If you take a step back and look at what you are doing; you will see that you are working toward a goal. A goal that has great rewards for both you and your child. My advice is to give yourself a timeline. FOr example, Stay with your parents for another year, find another job that you won't hate. Keep your head up and stay strong. LIfe is such a challenge and we as parents need to show our children that we have the strength to caring on with our head held high. No matter what life throws at us we can take it. YOU WILL!!!! Never plan for someone else to come along and take care of you. You may be 40 when you find the love of your life. If so, that is when it will be your time. Everything happens when it is supposed to. We just have to be patient and keep truckin along.
What are you going to school for?

I am going to school for Engineering.-Architectural. Eventually I envision of owning my own company. I would love to reach the point of owning the property, designing the property, building the design, and selling for a profit. Will that really happen? We'll see. Life has a funny way of laughing at me and the plans I have made. Thank you all for your support. It means so very much to me. I think sometimes I get more support from you all than I do my own family.

well i am glad to see this i am also afraid of this i have 3 kids i am 23 and the oldest is 3 i moved in with my parents after my husbend and i seperated and then i got into low income housing the problem is my parents are my support emotionaly and the only ones i can count on for help i have no social life that never happend maybe someday but my parents are moving out of state and they want me and the kids to go with them and then we will live with them i know it would be best becase then i can go to school but i shouldnt be counting on my parents i hate living with them my kids like having them around though and i dont think i could do it on my own here i have already been aplying to schoools here but i know i cant do it all alone i have bad days now that i just wish taht i could go back with there dad wich he would have me back in a heart beat but that would not be good for anyone i think you need to stay in school i wish i would have before i am sure it would have been better going with one kid than now 3 so were all working for a better life for are selves and are children that has to be worth something and well all make it though life sure isnt easy but we should be glad that are parents are willing to help out

Be lucky you have parents that support you, my mom is dead and my father gives lip service to helping his kids, don't get me wrong, it has made me stronger, but my dad plays favorites. Some of my siblings he would drive, fly, or any corse of travel to get to them, and help. Bet you can figure where I am on the list, I take care of life.

Pqaul like you it is just me ,myself and I .No help from family.love gail.

I do feel very lucky that I have my parents for support. It's just a matter of me reaching the point that I want to be on my own with my own family. I keep hoping each day will get better, but it don't. Everyday I end up hating myself more and more.

I do thank everyone for their support and suggestions

Sweetie I can promise you that it does get better but it takes time.I know that it does seem like it will never come.A year agao in May I was at wits end and i tried to kill myself now all I want is a chance to live.wE ARE ALL HERE TO HELP YOU THROUGH THISsoory cap lock.One day i would like to be able to type without all of these problems.You are doing great and i like you enough for the both of us but you need to like you to.Hugs and all my love gail

stop that hate stuff girl it will eat you alive, take it from a old guy, what is, is, thats the cards we delt with. we make our hands.