Some days I really wonder if I can do this anymore...I sometimes wonder if any of this is even really happening, or more so in disbelief that it actually is.

What I really need is someone to tell me that everything is going to be okay.

I need someone to tell me that I can endure another day of mediating fights between my two year old and six year old.

I need someone to tell me that I can take another entire day of listening to my toddler scream and can take one more wound as he pummels me in the car with projectile Matchbox cars. (Thank goodness for Motrin...lol)

I need someone to tell me that I will get by financially, despite the fact that I haven't received even one child support payment for 18 weeks.

I need someone to tell me that despite the fact that my ex-husband picked up his life and moved 1500 miles away to be able to have a fresh start, that perhaps someday I will be able to have a social life of my own again.

I need someone to tell me that I can retain my sanity during the 11 months out of the year that I have my children 24/7, and will be able to thoroughly enjoy the month that my kids spend with their father.

I need someone to tell me that I'm not alone, I'm not the only one who has complete custody of my children, while working full time, maintaining my household completely on my own both physically and financially, and being a personal taxi to my children's schools/daycares/extracurricular activities, while also trying to find time to teach my daughter her dance routine and teach my son to play catch.

I need someone to tell me that I can do this...I can be a mom and a dad to these kids, and can't maintain a stable household for them to grow up in.

I need someone to tell me that maybe, just maybe, my ex-husband will one day not only take responsibility for his kids and the actions that he took that lead to the demise of our marriage, but that perhaps he would even find it in his own heart to call his kids once in a while or take part in their lives.

I need someone to tell me that one day I may have a normal relationship again, and meet a man who not only understands my situation, but would actually be willing to be a part of it.

Basically I just need someone to tell me that they can relate to me and that I can get through each day. But sometimes I really doubt myself...

Thanks for listening.

Im not going through what you are dealing with, but I do want to give you a cyber hug

When your beautiful babies grow up into adults they are gonna love cherish you and appreciate all the sacrifices you've made for them. They are like little seeds in a garden that you tend to daily. One day you will look up and see the beautiful roses they have become.

As for the relationship thing goes...I understand how you feel. Im about 14 wks pregnant and alone and very much wanting my baby's father.Very little family support, even fewer friends. I have my moments, but my faith in God and prayer is whats keeping me strong.

ME TOO!!!!
I GET THROUGH THE DAY BY SAYING THE FOLLOWING:


BELEIVE IN YOURSELF,
LEARN FROM YOUR MISTAKES,
TRUST IN GOD, AND
NEVER GIVE UP FAITH


I HOPE TO GET THROUGH THE ONE DAY AT A TIME AND YOU WILL TOO JUST BELEIVE.

Thanks for the cyber hug youngnursemommy, I appreciate it!! Although I wouldn't wish our situations on anyone, it is good to know that people out there are experiencing or have experienced what I'm feeling.

Thank you also Tears, it's true that we need to do whatever we can to get through the days one day at a time.

Civix0731, WELCOME TO THE FORUM, It feels good to have someone that can relate. Some days i feel so drained and tired, i just wanna give up.The only thing that keeps me going are the children, even though they are whats draining me. You are truly not alone I am in the same boat its like your reading from my book of life. I try to take one day at a time. Take deep breathes and remember that they need you, that they only have you to depend on. Don't doubt yourself , believe in yourself if it wasn't for you it wouldn't be a them.

Hi,

I read thru ur msg thats just what i'am going through.