So, this is the first time I'm on this site, and so far so good. I'm going through quite an emotional breakdown. But, I wanted to introduce myself, and just kind of let it all out. I am currently 2 weeks late, pregnant with my first child. A little boy, Derek Matthew. His father and I had a "casual relationship" while I was in college, and one drunken night of drunken *** has spun my life around. Yes, the only time I had *** the entire semester.

Since then, I've had to take time off from school, move back in with my parents, and feel completely isolated. I was living on my own and enjoying the non-stress life of college, and I am now living with constant stress, and everybody I know that isn't family lives 450 miles away.

I've always dreamed of the movies. You know the story, 20-something fall head over heels, have the perfect career and the perfect house, engaged for a while and enjoy our life together and later have the perfect baby with the perfect pregnancy. Instead, I'm 21, single, living at home (which is unbelievably crowded), money, well, I'm counting pennies, and I don't believe a guy will ever look at me the same. And even if he does, I'm not sure I'll ever look at men the same. How can I ever have the love story with a child sitting next to me?

All of my friends are also 21. They're out enjoying college. Although they all completely support me, none of them understand, and how could they?

My mother works two jobs and is going for her masters. She has no time, and no money. Although she supports me, I rarely see her. But, she's let me live in her house, and has turned one of the bedrooms into the babies nursery. Which, oddly enough, only makes me feel guilty.

I think my stepfather is just annoyed that he has to now deal with a newborn. I don't think he wants it, although he hides behind his smiles.

My father is still trying to talk me into adoption, and I rarely see him. Although, he does live in town.

The baby's father lives 4 hours away, and although he says he's going to be supportive I rarely hear from him and I don't think that's going to change much when the baby does arrive.

I'm scared out of my mind. I don't think I'm going to be able to handle my life very soon. And I feel very very alone.

Someone, please...help.

I know that this time in your life may seem like a stressfull horrible time. but just think about the life that you've created, and it will get better.

Why did you have to quit schoool? There are a lot of single parents that are managing to go to school. I have two kids and am going part time.

Stay strong!

Well it is never to late to create the movies of your dreams...no one said it would be easy to get there...

the way i see it, you are creating the movie of your dreams and you get to know your child, and love him/her...he/she will be a huge part of your life and a blessing indeed.

i don't see why you can't meet mr. right and still write that movie script on your life...no one said that the path was a straight one to get there...there are times where we take a different turn but in the end, we get to where were suppose to be and meant to be...

i was pregnant at your age, and i was worried financially, and in all areas of my life...

i also had a tendency to focus on what i didn't have, money, great family relationships, a great career, an education etc....i wasted alot of time doing that, when all i had to do , was shoot for the stars...

life is a journey...one step at a time. there is no end to any of our goals..we start them, we end them, or we continue on other goals, so it is in the accumulation of life events that makes us wiser, more appealing to others and when we become grateful for that, then we can write our script.

Thanks a bunch guys!
I had to quit school because I went to college about 400 miles away from my home. Being that my home, with my parents and my siblings, was the only place I could get any real support or help raising the new little addition, I had to come home. Thus, I had to leave school.

I'll go back to school and finish up as soon as possible. I'm giving myself a five year spectrum. By time my little boy's five years old I want to have my degree, a career, and a decent place to live (out of my parents).

Keep your head up and remember everything happens for a reason. I am 25 and my son is going to be 6 in March, I'm not going to tell you it's easy because it's not. I worked with my best friend who is has no kids and is single and she always wanted to go out after work and I would always have to tell that I couldn't. I would never trade all the fun times with my for one night out at a club for drinks. I used to dream about finding the perfect man and and getting married and then having kids, but that's not how it is. I am a single mom and I work full time and I am finishing my bachelors degree by taking two classes two nights a week.

When I was younger I always wanted to be a mom. I have times when I wonder if I'm doing the right thing but I just have to look at my son and I remember that I'm the one that he depends on and I'm the one who's going to guide him. That's one job I'm pround of having.

I too recently became a single mom and moved back home with my mom. I have been separated from my husband since I was pregnant and he has been MIA except for about once a month since I had my son. I had to quit school to move home and have my mom support me. It's not easy and I know it won't be easy but I know I will get back to school so I can support my son by myself.