So I was up late at night again unable to sleep, when I saw a show hosted by Joel Olsteen...something like that. He is a pastor and was finishing up his service. I don't normally tune in to those shows, but I figured I would listen to his final thoughts. He spoke about how everyday so many of us are living with the past and how we need to accept the things we cannot change and live for today. He said we need to give up the things we cannot change and put them in god's hands. Then we can focus on living today, and in the future. I thought to myself, "Your telling me, that's exactly what I need to do!" So he finished up and said his prayer, and I repeated after him. The show was over. It's funny sometimes how you hear someone say just the right thing to change your perspective. Then the next day, it happened. Something so strange that the "higher power" had something to do with it. I'm 27 weeks pregnant and the father wants nothing to do with me or the baby. He's an alcoholic and blames everyone for his faults. He's a lier and manipulator. So I decided to drive to my ex's dad's work and drop off a letter to him. In the letter, I told my ex's dad that just because the daddy wants nothing to do with the baby, I still want him in my baby's life. I left it up to him if he wants to be apart of it. I haven't seen my ex for two months or so. But on my way home I realized that at any time he would be driving right down the same highway as I was on. I stopped to get some fast food on the way home. I sat there in the parking lot and got done eating. I was thinking about how bad I wished I would see him on the highway....I wanted him to see me. Then I got this feeling that it was time for me to leave and get going. I saw the number 3:37 in my mind. It was a little after 3:30 at this point. So I got on the road and headed for the highway. I was abruptedly stopped by two different red lights and then merged onto the highway. It was then 3:37. I merged into the middle lane, and then the far left lane. Guess who ended up right behind me??? My baby's daddy. I could not believe that somehow it ended up so completely perfect down to the stop lights that kept me from going on. He was behind me for about 5-7 miles. I was so shocked that he was behind me. I couldn't believe it. I then got in the middle lane to get ready to merge onto another freeway. I could see his truck as it started to pass by me. I looked straight ahead and didn't even give him the time of day to even look his way. I know he saw me and for some reason, that made me glad. I hoped that maybe for one second he thought of me, and realized that I'm real, I'm carrying his child. Maybe he couldn't sleep tonight because he was thinking of when he saw me, that he was within a few feet of his unborn child. Maybe tomorrow on his way home from work he'll wonder if he'll see me again. For some reason, it worked out so perfectly that we ended up at the same place and time on the freeway. I like to think it was supposed to happen, that for a moment, it made him remember that it's real, and I do exist along with our unborn child. I hope it made him think of what he had and that he lost it. After what happened today, I realized that I felt good about him seeing me. I am going to do my best to live for today and tomorrow and not hold on to the things in my past that can't be changed. It hurts to much sometimes to constantly think and think and think of all the things that have hurt you. I give it all up and I'm starting out down a new and better road. For those of you who read this entire story, I hope it was worth it. PS The best part about it was that I never once saw *his* face! Tiffnbaby Keegan

Tiff,

Strange how things happen that way huh. I hav little sgins that are related to what my X and I did or people we knew when we were together and then a few days later I'll have some sort of contact w/him. For example in the past month or so I've been seeing him off and on or seeing friends of his or there will be other little silly things that happen and he stoped by my house Sunday. Something told me to say home an extra 20mins b4 leaving. This would have brought me to about 4:05pm. I left my house 20mins b4 that. Another voice said just go and enjoy yourself. My X stoped by at 4:05pm..i know b/c I got a note in my door from him and I called him back. Weird huh.

I think your hou're right it's just subtle reminders to these X's that yes you X-GF still exsits and so do the babies.

SPIRIT

God is here always, he always working for us, he never rests, we are the ones who tune out.

I am from Houston and have seen that same message and seems very real. If you like that sermon you should get on his website and seek other messages. Joel Osteen is a Pastor here in Houston. Hope things work out for you and baby.

Reminds me of my alltime favorite.....

God, Grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, Courage to change the things I can, and the Wisdom to know the difference.

That's my favorite prayer. I say it about a hundred times a day. It's amazing how 3 short sentences can help you in ANY situation.

Tiffnbaby, your story is very close to home with me. I sometimes wonder the same thing driving down the road, if my ex were to see me and then see our daughter in the back, if that would change his perspective at all. I like to think it wouldn't because I am still angry with him and part of me wishes to never see him again. But there is another part that wants to see him one more time to tell him what I think of him and that I am doing great without him, but then when I think about it more, I realize that I actually do not know what I would say to him.

I am not a religious person but more spiritual. I do not believe in structured religion. I do believe in a higher power, but everyone has their own beliefs.

Your story has made my day though. I had nightmares, which happen from time to time, about my ex and things he could do to cause trouble with my life. I feel more positive now after reading your story and it is a comfort to know that there are other people who have a hard time sometimes like I do. I wish you the best with your baby. :balloon:

I finally just got two job offers. I realized that soon I will be starting a new job and making new friends. My life will start new again and I can focus on other things. I just feel like it will be easier to not think so much about my ex. Only 13 weeks until I have my little boy. The way I see my ex, thanx for your donation, bye bye! It was interesting how I was on the freeway right when he was, but I don't want that to happen again!!!!! Moving on I am

Moving on is good. i'm getting there very slowly