it makes me sad that the ex got a g/f right away after he broke up with me, lil miss 17 year old with a 25 yr old man, and hes happier than ever being child free with her & being able to do things spur of the moment when i have to find a babysitter...and it sucks i can't get a chance to go and be as free as he finding myself someone to make me happy. lately ive been depressed because being a stay at home mom i dont have anyone to go out with as much or talk to so it gets very lonely and pretty isolated, i hate that and i feel like all these thoughts and everything going on with me i keep to myself and its building up and i just wanna vent. i mean during naps and bedtime you're all alone and bored or just tired and it would be nice to have someone that comes home and asks how you're doing or your day and all that stuff...thats the only thing i miss about a guy. i believe its harder to find a man when you have a kid, i wouldnt want to be with a guy who has a kid it would be awkward to me so i understand men. recently this guy was so wanting to be with me and just marry me but yet he wasnt ready to be a "father" but yet he wanted to be with me, you can't just have me, i come with a package too. ugh...i know several people whove had probs with being an instant parent coming into a relationship and i know a few who got over it or dont mind it, i hope that my ex isn't my soulmate even tho i still hate him so much i still love & miss that f'er...i hate this ambivalence and its been over 1.5 years and i'm still not over this heartbreak