I am sooo depressed. I just spent the weekend with my family and their new babies, wifes, husbands and talk of new homes. I am the only single one besides my son's dad who is at all our family events. I broke down and told him I thought we might of made a mistake breaking up and he thought I was out of my mind! He said he'd never marry me because I'm his son's Mother and if it didnt work it would screw our son's life up. I told him our son was crying at school when I picked him up because he wants us to be a real family. I've never been married and am a single Mom turning 35 this year. I want nothing more than to have the experience of being pregnant and having my husband happy and excited about it and my family all supportive. I never had anything like that. Neither pregnancy was happy and joyful except to me and neither father was around when my kids were born. I just want a family so much...I know we already are one, it's just differentthen I'd like it and its eating me up inside....

Oh, Sweetie....

I am the last of the final frontier too. But I tell you this, everything that we see on the outside is not always perfection on the inside. I don't want to be married JUST BECAUSE, I want the entire aspect of a marriage.

Rolling over feeling, touching, kissing, giving and receiving, holding, my future......

Sharing moments that will forever be recorded in our memories as one and as family....

Touching each other's soul to depths of unmeasurable compromise....

Loving me, loving him, loving us...

I know, sounds like UTOPIA, all things are possible....

I have to agree with your son's father...marrying just because we have a child isn't enough...We would all love to believe it is, but it isn't...Loving each other individually helps to sustain the love as a family...

Peace and love to you....

When I bring my daughter to her dance class, and before that, her gymnastics classes, I have found myself getting all teary eyed, because the other mothers there, have children my daughters age, and some of them had new babies. I think, "how unfair" I want to have another child too, but not under the same circumstances as my daughter. I'm getting scared that time is running out. I try to think that at least I have my daughter, and I'm lucky for that. I guess we just have to have hope, even though hard to think that way. Maybe in the future, things will turn out, and we can look back, and say, "Remember I thought it would never happen." Then we can really appreciate whatever it is that life has in store for us.

Kindred light,
I'm sorry that you feel you are missing out on a marriage which is obviously what you desire. How you are talking is how people end up with these abusive men. Stop feeling sorry for yourself and embrace what you have. Someone in another topic said that single parenting isn't for co-dependent people. Your child is picking up on the fact that you want someone and don't have that. You are making him want that too. You have to be strong. You have to show your son that you are already a family. You need to take this time to get to learn about yourself and learn about what makes you happy....by yourself. No one is responsible for making you feel happy but you. Marriage isn't all it's cracked up to be and it's not easy either. The grass isn't always greener on the other side of that fence. I'm just being realistic here...I hope you figure this one out, it would be more horrible to hear you talk about how to get out of an abusive relationship and someone whose abandoned you...this is just you feeling lonely...and remember there are plenty of people in marriages too, that are lonely. I wish you peace....Karen

KindredLight

i sort of experenced something of the same. two weeks ago, i went for a weekend of camping with some of our old friends. about 5-8 families normally go camping together mom& dad& kids & dog. so there are about 15-30 people but this time i was alone and it was a little different for me and every one else.