So I'm 37, in the process of a divorce and have 2 great school-age kids. My husband moved thousands of miles away last May. Hasn't sent any money, hasen't seen the kids since he left and sometimes goes a month or two without even calling the kids. (He's getting better at calling more often now.) I had to sell the house, since I couldn't afford it on my own, and move out of our nice little mid-class neighborhood. Now we live in a rental apartment. I'm sure lots of ya'all know how much it really sucks owning your own home and then having to rent and live around a ton of parents and kids that have no respect. Kids that are just down-right mean to my kids.

I'm pretty sure I pissed off most of my friends because all I ever talked about was how bad life is for us. Gets really old hearing about it. Most my friends are all married, have good husbands, do things together as a family. I'm in a different world now and don't spend much time with any of them since they all are busy with their families. It's just me and my kids now. I love my kids more than anything, but I also need that support from my friends.

My family lives back in the Midwest. I made the decision to move back there since there is really nothing left here in the the Northwest for us. (Lost my husband, lost the house, lost my job .. that's what I mean by pretty much nothing left here.) We move in June. Not sure if that's going to help matters any, but at least I'll be closer to my family.

Wow, I'm totally babbling on and on. Guess I am still pretty much in that angry, angry stage. When does that end? I don't want to be angry. I want me and the kids to be happy. I'd like to frequent smiles and laughter again. Is that really too much to ask?

So, enough about the bad stuff. I am turning to support by reading. I just started reading this book, "From One Single Mom to Another." Pretty good so far. The one problem I have is that the woman who wrote the book is a different type of person than I am. She seemed to be a Holly Homemaker and her friends I think are all from her church. I have not attended church in years. I think my kids have only seen the inside of a church 2-3 times. Pretty sad especially since I went to church twice a week my entire youth. Keep telling the kids that we're going to start going. I've been saying that for like 3 years now. Hasn't happened.

Anyway, I want to find something to read that is more related to the type of person I am and single parenting as it pretty much is this day and age. Suggestions would be great.

Afterthought ... my 11-yr-old just walked in and unloaded his entire "my life sucks" speech to me again. So, obviously we're not all doing so well emotionally. I'm waiting to hear about medical insurance so I can get the kids in to see a counselor. Moving, seeing a counselor, me back on antidepressants. We're taking steps forward, but I'm a "now" person. And the "now" just ain't all that exciting.

Hoping I can get some support online. Thanks for reading.

Hi from the other side of the River, and welcome to the site.

It can take a long time to get over the breakup, each situation is different. I have been through this twice now.

Sorry to hear about what happened.

im so rowing that boat my 9 yr old well his life "sucks" and hey its all about him now but for me its been since march 3 and it is getting better my 8 yr old is like water of a ducks back the 16 yr old only wants me happy can you tell who hung with the ex more lol councelling is my god sent dont know where we d be without it hang in there i 2 am 37 yet feel 27 lmao keep posting feels good to rant without judgement ttyl