PS....not all Shannons are created equally.......
So there! (arms crossed, sticking out tongue)

FWIW,....I like ya...

Big/Major follow up here:
(Sorry Bunny, I tried to reach YOU first)

Ok...for those of you that are not brand new...and remember my post on Tess's request for what 40+ men want, yeah it was long.

Well...that was post written with mainly one person in mind....which came out in the latter pages of this thread.

Yes, the infamous, "Shannon". ( no, not you Zionscry. ...although infmaous in her own way).
And although I have already shared this with a few of you...I'm doing it here...so here's a re-post of what I shared with some friends on another site: (It's REALLY LONG)
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Ok...I cant remember how much I've whined about it in the past, but....LOL...
(WARNING: this may sicken some of you...LOL )

But oft times I've talked about Shannon, "the" woman of my dreams that I,...well, I let get away...maybe even drove away. (Be patient, I'll come back to this..in a bit)

Been going through some tough times lately, my 12yo DD is dealing with lots of stuff, coming to terms with what her mother "really" did ...as she is older now and able to understand more. On Friday I had to put our 15yo Husky to sleep, he couldnt get up anymore. This is a VERY busy time of year for me...I dont have very much time for anyting but work.

She was very distraught at the passing of our dog.... I cant even remember if I posted about it....I was pretty bummed myself...as were the 2 older kids. Anyhow....she spent the night in my bed on Friday night and cried herself to sleep. Saturday, I was totally spent cause she kept me up and so that night she made the 2 older kids stay up with her, while I went to bed early.

I found out about this the next morning.

So Sunday morning, as I drove her over to her mothers....I tried to explain to her how things were still ok...how she needed to learn to see the best in situations....and as I spoke....something clicked in myself and I had to take my own advice.

Ok, Back to Shannon:
About a year a half ago I got up the nerve to ask this lady out ...at a place I shopped for a couple of years now. (Yes, it took me that long) She agreed and we went out. We instantly clicked ........OMG...so fast it was crazy...everything was SO right! This woman was everything I ever wanted ...and then some things I had forgotten I wanted. I had NEVER thought I'd meet this person EVER in my lifetime....I never even tried...because of the remoteness of the chance. We were so in-synch it was crazy! To top it off, she though the same of me!

But, I actually wasnt ready....not only did I have doubts...I was very insecure....I mean how could this awesome lady want me? ME? of all the men she could be with? So, I pushed...to try to find out....and over a short time suffocated and drove her away. I knew her for 2 months...and for 2 months I was happier than I had ever been my whole life.

The scars from my divorce left me with very little self confidence...a shell of my former self.

Not one day has gone by that I have not thought about her...and every woman I've met has been compared to her. But now.... over a year later, I have returned to who I was ...moreso, in fact. More confident than I ever was....and stronger. (Yeah yeah, I can hear the music, too) LOL

Anyhow, so I called her...planning to leave a message apologizing for acting like an insecure a-hole that I was at the time. Not planning anything else just, so she knew that what happened was All me. Then, that chapter of my life would be closed...and I could move on.

But, she picked up the phone..........

OMG...I didnt realize how much I missed her voice.... we talked for about 35 minutes before I cut the call off....discussing what had happened...how much I missed her...how much she missed me....and how I never wanted to let that happen again....how I wanted time to fully explain myself. She was as kind and openhearted as ever. God I was such an idiot.

So after the call....I did my best, with minimal succes to get her off my mind.
I'm in a different place now...whereas before this would have consumed me....now....I just feel peace and real........well, "joy".

This morning I was pulling up to my house after dropping my oldest off at work, and I recieved a text message...assuming it was one of my employess as per normal....I checked it... and....

Well... here...I'll just paste the message I sent to my best friend "Bunny":
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Did you get my message?
If you didnt, then this wont make sense.

So, after the phone call yesterday, I tried to keep her off my mind with limited, but definite success.

Today, as I was pulling up at home from dropping Allison off at work, I got a text:

"Hi, I want to thank U for calling. How nice to be able to wish U a Beautiful Morning & a absolutely fantastic day Take it easy out there!! -Shan."

of which I resonded:
Ur so awesome! How could I be so stupid? Have a good day Shannnon. Call u later, if that's ok.

and she replied:
"Sure it's ok, but I wk - 12:30 to 9:00"

Me:
Ok. U call me if you feel up to it. I know how mondays can be.

Shannon:
"When, this evening?"

Me:
U? anytime.

Shannon:
FUNNY GUY! LOL NOW BE SERIOUS?

Ok, at that point I just decided to call her and it's not 9:30 am yet here...and I've already talked to her 3 times about silly stupid things...LOL ...like texting, phone plans....and chickens! Well,...she started it!

Geez, it's like High School all over again. I'm not looking to push any "relationship" thing. I just miss so much talking to, and being with her. Apparently the feeling was very much mutual...not guessin this time, I KNOW it was!

She was telling me that her friend had just shown ( shown, is a brief way of saying it, I'll tell you more later) her some pictures she had take of "Us" last year. She had just finished seeing those yesterday morning, and then I called around noon. Is that crazy or what?!!

OMG!! my head is swimming, excited, nervous...hands shaking. How awesome to be able to hear her voice again. We will hopefully be seeing each other over dinner later this week.

So much more to tell you....but, I gotta go.

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Ok...so maybe a little more than just peaceful...LOL

I missed my "buddy"....and I love having her back in my life to "ANY" extent.

Thanks y'all for being patient with my little story.

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For those of you that dont know what list I'm referring to...it's on the first page of this thread.

Ok....I'm spent.

Oh...and more follow up...that was Sunday, and Monday morning....Monday night stayed up talking to her till after 1 am.

This (tuesday) morning....spent about 20 texts back and forth...before her calling me...LOL

Maybe actually see her later this evening....we'll see...

Aww...I'm so happy for you Paul! It sounds like the reconnecting is all going so smoothly.

I got the messages and PM's
I am so happy you are so happy.

Enjoy it.
Don't over think it.

to my bestest friend!

quote:

Ok, Back to Shannon:

Paulie...want we should smack you around if you start to run?

ON a more serious note...I'm very happy for you and I hope that you are able to enjoy the companionship and friendship of a missed friend. I can only hope for the both of you that it's a friendship that is meant to last a very long time.

How wonderful and Happy!!!! Congratulations... i hope things go well

Paul, I finally got around to reading this . . . congrats man!

but I am with BS, if you start to run we will smack you around.

Hey...dont congrulate me yet...I havent even "seen" her yet. LOL Was supposed to last night..but she worked late. So, I went out by myself to have a beer. My life doesnt stop cause she's not available. But thank you anyways....just keep me in prayer that I handle this correctly.

Well Paul, it would appear that if you dont handle this right . . . that two women on this forum will come slap you until you do. lol But then again, you might like that. haha

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Originally posted by paulj_in_phx:
Hey...dont congrulate me yet...I havent even "seen" her yet. LOL Was supposed to last night..but she worked late. So, I went out by myself to have a beer. My life doesnt stop cause she's not available. But thank you anyways....just keep me in prayer that I handle this correctly.

So, don't screw it up already!!!! I hope it does work for you, though! - cause no one seems to compare to the famous "Shannon"....too bad for all the other ladies out there!

((((( Stephanie )))))))

yes, Paul?.....

Paul i just took the time to read this and thanks brother for posting it......

I'm sure you wont screw it up and everything will work out

but this post kind of gives me hope

I lost that girl that one ...till this day i can't stop thinking about.. I lost her due to my stupid pride....

Thanks for sharing there is hope