Does it ever get any better? Im always depressed and down. Some days my boys and running me into the ground. At 4 and 6 I have alot longer to deal with it. Being lonely and now broke is just a bonus.

Yes, it gets easier, welcome to the forum! You will find alot of support here. I'm guessing you have no backup? No one to help you by taking the boys for a few hours? I did not have that either, I just found ways to let them play without me having to be right next to them. I took them to the park, to Chuck-E-Cheese, which is a pizza place where the kids play all these games and win prizes. The door is monitored and they stamp your hand and the kids hands and they will not let your kids leave without you. It is a secure place where I used to take a book and the kids ran wild and I did not have to worry about them. Do you have a place like that where you are? Anyway, the older they get the more you do not have to watch them as closely and it gets more fun. Good Luck!

Check out your local recreational center and see what programs they offer. They are usually very inexpensive or free ($10 for 8 weeks of 1x week/1 hour sessions)

It gives you an hour of one on one time w/ the other child or try to find something for the 2 of them at the same time and you get an hour of "me time".

Over time, getting organized, and learning to breath consistently does wonders....it does get easier...

Keep your head up!

C

Good advice so far, check into activities for them to give yourself a breath of air now and then. Otherwise.....I think so far as time to yourself it does get easier. I've got a 15 year old/youngest daughter that just went to visit family out of state for 6 weeks, came home one night, and now she's with her sister until saturday. Even regularly she goes to spend time with friends etc. so I get my time somewhat regularly...even if it does mean playing chauffeur to make it happen, and a whole lot of different worries...I did mention she's 15 right?
Overall.....including everything....it's not really easier, the stresses just change, but personal time for you does happen more.

It is hard, but like they said, it gets better with time, I have and only child and that means that whenever your children are playing together mine wants to play with me, try to relax and find activities that they like so they give you some breathing room.