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Old 04-20-2006, 11:06 PM   #1
Janinne
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Hello I am Janinne and I am 27 years old and a single mom. It all started out so simply and innocently. I was 18, and trying to live a good life. I went to a Halloween Party...wearing no costume (how lame) with my friends. My friends went off by themselves and I went to the counter. I had a whole bunch of Kool Aids (hey I was bored) and got high. I met this guy, Joel, who didn't dress up either. He was sort of a goth and we were having fun though. I was so hyper and didn't know what I was doing. We danced and talked. We talked for about 3 hours. He seemed like a nice guy. Before I knew it, we were in his apartement making love. I awoke the next day with his sleeping face right next to mine. I almost forgot what had happend and left quietly. I was so scared...I lost my virginity to a goth guy I barely knew! I went back to my place and he called me. I forgot I gave him my phone number...O_o. He started talking to me all mean like saying, "hey where the **** are you?!" I said I was busy and hung up. He kept calling the rest of the day but I didn't answer. I was so freaked out by the fact I did it for the first time and acutally started thinking, "hey what if I get pregnant??" I doubted it though but I still worried about it. I was in my first year of college after all. 1 month later I find out I'm pregnant. I freaked out and told Joel. He was so mad.
"your pregnant?? Aww ****it! How the **** am I supposed to do this?!" I was sad that I had made him so mad. I told him it wasnt my fault but he didnt listen. He kept swearing at me.
When I was 6 months pregnant, he came to my apartement telling me to put the baby up for adoption! I refused and was so angry at him. This baby was his, too! I couldn't believe how selfish he was being.

Then, on July 18th, Evee Sawa Carson was born. He didn't come when she was born. He left when I was 7 months pregnant. But now I'm trying to give Evee the best possible life she can have and I'm not telling her anything about her father. She's asked questions, but I'm not replying to them. If she did find him, he'd probably hurt her since I remember him saying when I was 7 months pregnant, "I hate this baby even if its not born yet.". I'm coping with it the best I can though.
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