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Old 05-14-2012, 02:18 PM   #46
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I am totally trapped in the idea of self medicating: I took up smoking again. Initially i quit smoking 5 years ago when my first child was born - it was easy and did it cold turkey. well, I got separated from my then wife about a year or two ago and started back smoking again. partly was to show my defiance. another part was to get myself high on nicotine. now I smoke about 5 cigarettes a day. usually they are all smoked in one sitting - at night on my porch, after my kids are in bed. after I smoke them all up I am high on nicotine and then i go to bed! my neighbor has been coming over daily to smoke and joke with me now - I would really like to get rid of that guy coming over and asking me to smoke and joke. I told him i will joke with him outside but i will not be smoking with him everyday as I am trying to slow it down. eventually i want to quit all together. other than that - I gotta ease off the porn, too. masturbation is getting REAL old real fast. porn just makes me think of women as 'a means to an end' and that's just not healthy.
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I have dealt with very similar feelings of depression and anxiety. I took antidpressants for a while and finally got away from those when I discovered I had low testosterone levels. Voila! No more depression. However, the anxiety of what I had created still lingers and it has affected my life and my relationships. I have trouble concentrating and I feel overwhelmed most of the time. I was drinking too much and finally started a vigorous exercise program to lose weight and, hopefully deal with the stress. It has helped but, I am still hurting some. I did cut out most of the alcohol. No more bourbon! Only 1-2 beers a night now and I feel better. It is a process, not an event. Find out what works for you by remembering what has given you pleasure in the past and get back to it. I have alwways been a fit person and it got away from me. Now, I am better and still have a way to go. I too an still seeking help. I see a counselor and so does my son. He lives with me, is 15 and we edon't always see eye-to-eye. That is another part of the anxiety and another story. He didn't like that there was always booze in the house. That's gone now. Now if I could just get my hands on $5000.00 to get caught up on house and taxes, I'll be in great shape! Any ideas???
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Depression is hard...Feels like a cloud is hanging over-head sometimes. Meditation is very helpful in combating this feeling and bringing you back to the present moment.
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One other way some people try to self medicate is to try and "fix" someone else.
This is actually a form of co-dependance and the fixer is the enabler. They get their medication by fixing someone that they perceive as broken.

Many of us have done it in the past and for me, I finally realized what I weas doing and successfully broke the cycle of looking for people/partners to fix.
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Old 03-12-2013, 08:02 AM   #50
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DC,
I have dealt with very similar feelings of depression and anxiety. I took antidpressants for a while and finally got away from those when I discovered I had low testosterone levels. Voila! No more depression. However, the anxiety of what I had created still lingers and it has affected my life and my relationships. I have trouble concentrating and I feel overwhelmed most of the time. I was drinking too much and finally started a vigorous exercise program to lose weight and, hopefully deal with the stress. It has helped but, I am still hurting some. I did cut out most of the alcohol. No more bourbon! Only 1-2 beers a night now and I feel better. It is a process, not an event. Find out what works for you by remembering what has given you pleasure in the past and get back to it. I have alwways been a fit person and it got away from me. Now, I am better and still have a way to go. I too an still seeking help. I see a counselor and so does my son. He lives with me, is 15 and we edon't always see eye-to-eye. That is another part of the anxiety and another story. He didn't like that there was always booze in the house. That's gone now. Now if I could just get my hands on $5000.00 to get caught up on house and taxes, I'll be in great shape! Any ideas???
I still medicate with alcohol - I average 2 beers a day now (but I drink them all in one weekend haha). As far as self medicating goes, I am healthier now as I am exercising regularly. I've been running (up to five miles non stop, 2 or 3 times a week). I no longer smoke and been smoke free for about a year now. I think the kids and I are all coping better now that we're a single parent family. The ex is still with that old guy, and happy as a lark. My relationship with her is better, too. I do make sure to express any frustration to her when things get really hard- this helps me destress.

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Depression is hard...Feels like a cloud is hanging over-head sometimes. Meditation is very helpful in combating this feeling and bringing you back to the present moment.
I tried to take medication there for a brief 3-6 month period and my body just wouldn't accept what ever I tried - i was way too sensitive and would show signs of allergic reaction. Doctor just took me off of them for a minimum of 3-6 to clean my body out and I just never went back to apply for more meds. I was looking at ADHD medication instead of mood stabilizers.

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One other way some people try to self medicate is to try and "fix" someone else.
This is actually a form of co-dependance and the fixer is the enabler. They get their medication by fixing someone that they perceive as broken.

Many of us have done it in the past and for me, I finally realized what I weas doing and successfully broke the cycle of looking for people/partners to fix.
In the past two years after my divorce has been final (3 since the ex left) I have been involved with two really messed up women. one had kids and the other didnt. but they were, as you say, broken. I tried to fix them and quickly realized I couldn't and that I shouldn't. I have now grown out a complete handlebar mustache straight out of the 1950's and women have pretty much left me alone and vice versa. I am taking myself off the market to explore exercise and rediscover the things I love to do.
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Nobody takes herbs? St. Johns Wort or anything of that nature? Is that considered "self medicating"?
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Old 09-27-2013, 09:23 AM   #52
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hahaha I believe that's called taking care of yourself. Hey, since we're revisiting this post, you know what I am doing now to take care of myself? Running. I run a lot. I run so much that I am doing a marathon October 6th. it will bt my first marathon and I will have completed 18 weeks of training. talk about changing my life!!! deciding to start running was the best decision I could have made post divorce. I still drink a ton a beer, but running is amazing. JUST AMAZING!
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Old 09-27-2013, 11:00 AM   #53
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I got into running for awhile, lost a ton of weight! I stopped running, and slowed way down on excercise, but only put back on about 7lbs (I lost 30!). Running is great, but with a young child it is a difficult hobby to get into. I bought a treadmill, but that is so boring. I started picking up on working out again, still run a little on the treadmill, but not like I was, only about 20 to 30 minutes, but now I weight lift more then I was.

I did do a 15K (9 miles) and that was tough!

Good luck on your marathon! You will need to post back and let us know how you did, a full marathon is intense - 26 miles!!!!
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Old 09-27-2013, 02:04 PM   #54
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Hi Daddycakes,
Thanks for posting here. I am one of those that seems to be sticking my head in the sand so to speak. I'm am newly seperated, mother of 3, with no help, support or job.
I'm terrified and like a deer in the headlights and can't seem to gather the strenghth or courage to move.
Any thoughts or ideas?

Thanks for reading
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Old 03-13-2014, 02:27 AM   #55
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Before I had my daughter, I struggled with depression constantly. I drank so much, I seriously began consider that I was an alcoholic, among other very destructive behaviors that are far beyond the scope of sharing in a public forum, but suffice to say, I was a pretty miserable person.

I think perhaps some of the wisest bit of advice I ever got was from my older sister. She told me that if a person ever plans to successfully rid themselves of "bad habits" they had to replace them with new, healthy ones. For her, it was exercising, running in particular.

I unfortunately have not been as successful as her at finding those healthy things to replace with... I seem to like to play the "hiding game" from life. I've lost myself in gaming (as mentioned before, WoW and similar games can be so immersive one can almost literally live "that life" instead of their own)... but I suppose gaming is better than drinking... a small step...

Personally, if I find myself just down right in the dumps, I find it helpful to remind myself of the wonderful things that I do have. A beautiful daughter, a warm cozy bed to sleep in, etc. There are others that don't have near as much as I do, so I try to let myself feed and concentrate on the positives in my life, rather than worry about what's missing.

We are beings who will always strive for improvement. This can a wonderful thing by bringing success, etc. to our lives in various forms, but can also be the cause of self-doubt and sadness that come from so many other areas of life (for us here on the forum, a failed marriage comes to mind, a devastating reality to contend with, no matter the circumstances).

In short, I try to live for today, for the wonderful things that I DO have. It helps.
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I joined a gym. When I feel down and alone I hit the treadmill until I feel better
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First I'd like to say I have self medicated with drinks, drugs, binge eating, and it's shameful but, robitussin. I literally understand how anyone who has self medicated with literally any substance feels. A walk down the pharmacy isle or some god forsaken back street was like driving my car to work. It sucked but I had to daily.

Here's how I said a long goodbye to self medication:

Dear Substances,

We've had some great times together, but like my marriage you were full of lies, spent my money, left me in the cold, and gave me illnesses I'll never recover from, screwed with my head, wrecked my car, stole my children, and I'll never get most of those things back. So guess what substances, unlike my marriage, I'm leaving YOU! Sometimes I'll lay awake thinking about you, or drive by and look at you in the window, but it's over. My hands will never touch your devil's poison again!

NOT yours,
Sam E.

I read this aloud every day and remind me how self medication is like my Ex. Sweet at first but takes everything in the end. I get so bitter I channel it into a healthier me.
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It is very important to stay organized and get a lot of sleep
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I think I prefer "Self healing" than self medication. Self healing does not mean you hide your pain or that you always show people that you're happy even when you're not. I think, it's more of standing up and making yourself happy, like looking at the positive side of life instead of the negative ones. Sure, you may be constantly depressed but, you deserve to be happy. It just takes time to realize what really makes you happy. I think, as long as you're around your children and the people you love like parents and friends, you can slowly conquer depression.
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This is my life quote now. Haha.
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